LovesMusic Posted May 1, 2017 Share Posted May 1, 2017 Hello, I just found out that my first girlfriend is engaged and I have been thrown back by it all. We dated for 5 years and we broke up about 5 years ago as well. She left me because at the time we weren't happy. We were each other's firsts for everything and being together at such a young age there were many inevitable mistakes. When she left me I tried everything to get her back but with no success. I decided to get my life together and fix all the things about myself that I felt led us to our break up. I didn't want to be someone that let down those who love him. I have made quite a success out of myself since then and I am blessed and lucky to have been able to do so much for myself during this time period. I have met another girl and for the most part I am happy but I have always felt like my ex girlfriend has always had a piece of my heart that I could never put back. I am open with the girl I am with now about how I felt about my ex and she understands that there are special people in your life as she has some too. My ex started dating one of her good friend's long-term boyfriends about 1.5 years ago and when I found out about that I was really disappointed with her decisions but I figured it wouldn't last because of how wrong it seemed to be. I never wished bad on her but I always had this gut feeling that her and I would end up together in some way. It took me a long time to stop pining for her and to feel comfortable dating other people and moving on and I left her alone. I haven't spoken to her in a little over 2 years and when we see each other out we act like we don't and make a quick exit. I know in my heart this girl loves me and I'm sure she is in love with the guy she is engaged to but I also know for a fact this guy does not love her like I do. I have a tremendous feeling that this is a huge mistake, albeit hers to make. I am not going to contact her or express these feelings to her. We are not even on speaking terms to where we could appropriately be friends or where I could congratulate her. I feel like I am loosing my friend for good this time and I don't know how I am supposed to feel about this. My mind is set on a life without her but I just can not stop feeling like we are going to be together. It's not a voluntary feeling and it's horrible to feel like someone you care about is making a disastrous mistake and you not being able to do anything about it. I have tried to rationalize this feeling away but it just won't go away. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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