kaytsky Posted April 11, 2017 Share Posted April 11, 2017 I've ruined my life by listening to my family instead of doing what I wanted to do. I have a Master's degree in Fine Arts that is totally useless. As soon as I set foot on that college campus, I knew this path was not right for me but my family encouraged me to stick with it. I ended up doing so poorly in my classes that many times my professors advised me to choose another career. It took me 8 years (yes EIGHT) to finally get my Master's. Of course, I cannot get a job in my field no matter how hard I try. For the last 12 years I've been working in retail and I absolutely HATE it! Even though I constantly apply, I haven't moved passed being a Sales Associate, I'm tired of dealing with rude customers who look down on me, and the pay is miserable. My family just keeps telling me "Things have to get better eventually." But after 12 years, things just steadily got worse. For 12 over years I've been applying to jobs outside of my field but that's not working either. I was a school teacher for a little while but dealing with students only increased my depression. I've done volunteer work, internships, took online courses, had my resume professionally looked over, attended hiring workshops, but none of them had gotten me anywhere. Through a friend, I did get a job doing office work but I was fired 6 months later after it was obvious that I couldn't handle the work load (I have adult ADD and dyslexia and while I am getting treatment, dealing with numbers and dates is a constant struggle.) I feel I've reached my limit. I'm not married, I have no kids, a mountain of student loan debt, and living in the most horrible and filthy part of town. I really want a family but at 35 I feel I'm getting too old and I don't even have a boyfriend. Not a night goes by that I don't hope someone breaks into my house and puts me out of my misery. I feel reaching out is my last hope before I just end it all and get it over with. What if there is such thing as being "reborn" after death? At this point of my life, what can I do to get out of retail and into a more professional career? Keep in mind that I still do volunteer work, I am in therapy and on medication, I can't afford to go back to school, and I have no family nearby. And PLEASE don't tell me stuff like "Just pray and it will happen" or "Keep your head up and things will get better." I've been hearing this for over 12 years and there is no rule that things have to get better. Sitting around waiting for opportunity to fall in my lap is something I have no desire to do. Link to comment
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