tgreer1 Posted March 12, 2017 Share Posted March 12, 2017 What joy having a baby is supposed to be, especially when you are supposed to be infertile? Well, earlier this week my friend finally convinced me to take a pregnancy test after badgering over it for a couple weeks. I just was doing it to prove her wrong, when in reality I proved her right. If I can calculate this well enough, I should be anywhere from 8 to 12 weeks. Exciting, right? Well, not for me. Considering that this baby is my ex boyfriends, the one that I still love with every ounce of me, but loves to remind me that its over and we cant ever be together because he just doesn't want to be with anyone. (after we were together, living together for two years) I told him after my best friend convinced me it to be the right thing to do. well, yesterday after the fight from the two nights before and me ignoring him for the day, I updated him on my first appointment/possible size of baby/and my second test also being instantly positive. He then proceeded to thank me for the information but said we needed to talk. He wants me, him, and his friend to get a place together. He doesn't want another man being the first man in our baby's life- even though I told him I'm done giving my heart to men. He said he would respect my space, that he wouldn't bring women home, that I could even quit my job and he would handle the bills with his friend so I can care for our baby. As great as all that sounds, I'm terrified to do that. The fact whether he brings women home or not wont stop the pain and hurt I feel towards him. I love him, and seeing my broken family living in the same home again but not together, hurts. I know I have to do whats best for LW (Little Warrior), but I don't know if I could deal with the pain of staring Eli in the face everyday, seeing him with the dream we both used to discuss together, but apart. But I also know with my parents already wanting me out because there is no room with the current 5 in our house, when they find out about LW they really will want me gone. I just don't know what to do. Link to comment
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