I don't know what to do :"(

[Missymiss]

Long story.... Bare with me. I was with my partner for 6 years 5 months. I found he was seeing someone and I confronted him, he came out with the truth didnt deny it and told me everything and that he would cut her off and it meant nothing to him and that he needs help to get past what he's done because he felt horrible so he wanted help to help himself and us move forward which I was willing to do. Couple of weeks pass after our trip away I found out he didn't call it quits with her and she had no idea he was still with me he was lying to her and me.. so I got in contact with this girl. We spoke for 3 hours about how he lied to us, how he did us wrong ect we cried together. Next morning she texted me saying that he came over next morning they spoke and she told him me and her spoke and she got him to drop some of her stuff and gave his stuff back and thats it she basically hated his guts, after that day he found out me and her spoke for 3 hours he texted me saying he wants space to think and he will give me a chance to talk about eveything days passed and he wouldn't txt only call me, he called me everyday to make sure I was okay because I had other things going on and he also assured me I'd get the chance to talk to him and he calmed me down because I was crying and distressed about other things so I felt okay. Couple of days pass.. So I went to his house because I was sick of waiting he said he wanted space but I wanted to sort things out so I was sick of waiting so I went to his house to clear the air because he wasn't txting only calling to make sure I'm okay and and he also mentioned he would give me the chance to talk about everything once I feel better so i went to go talk anyway I went and he wasnt at home so i talked to his parents they found out about everything and they were super pissed to find out what he's up to and that's when I found out the girl gave him another chance!! The parents were saying I was the only girl he brought home for 6 years he loved me dearly and they only knew me up until he told them we broke up (which we never did) he only did it in order to bring the other girl home. So everyone assumed we broke up but we didn't, He was seeing her for 3 months while seeing me... so anyway

I left his house because his parents wanted to talk to him privately about what he's done, 1 hour later I get a call he was pissed of because I went to his place I broke out crying on the phone and he was listening.. he mentioned why he did what he did and during that my phone died so we never got the chance to finish talking again because when I called back his phone was turned off and has been ever since. Now he's with her and he's left our 6 year relationship I never got the chance to talk to him properly because my phone died and I'm so confused I almost committed suicide 2 times and my health has gone down the drains. His reason for cheating - he didn't meet my family so he didn't feel important i blale myself so much for not introducing him, my parents are very old fashioned so I was afraid to do it so I wanted to do it right! But I kept dragging it and making excuses that I would and he got sick of it I shouldn't have waited 6 years because now I've lost him, If I had known I'd be in this position today I would have put effort in to doing something now I feel hopeless like its my fault, I miss him and I can't bare the thought of being with someone else even though he hurt me so bad we spent 6 years together! How can he throw that away!? Will he ever regret it? Does he even think about me? And why would she take him back! Why didn't she just walk away as she did! She's also very young! I had so much respect for her after we both spoke on the phone but then she went and gave him another chance knowing how I felt but then again he probably lied to her and told her we spoke about it and I'm fine. Her family hate him, and can't trust him at all so why couldn't she just leave I would have helped him get through everything before heading back into our relationship and I would have changed. She makes him happy now but how can he give up on me on us like that? I also want to mention during our relationship about 5 years in I started hearing rumores that he's a cheater, he sends nudes he has dating apps which I saw eveything with my own eyes but I put that behind me after speaking to him about that we made sure everything was deleted and he gained my trust again he did however deny it all and said hes not sure how the daiting proflies were made or how private photos were sent to some private messages and he said someone must of hacked him so I choose to not argue and just delete eveything and not worry. Was he always a cheater? Will he cheat on her to? I'm so confused The rumors were obviously real and eveything else I saw. WHAT DO I DO why do I still want him back!? I'm crying so much everyday. I'm devastated. I believe I could have helped him with counseling and other things and i didn't want to jump in back into our relationship straight away but wait and give it time to heal for us to heal work everything out ect so we could have moved forward! What do I do