JamisonStorm Posted March 4, 2017 Share Posted March 4, 2017 Hi I'm Jamie and I am at a difficult crossroad in my marriage and could use another persons perspective. I have been married to my husband for 13 years and we have been together for 16 years. Overall we're good together, like any marriage we have our challenges. I love my husband and son and do not want to hurt them. We sometimes fight and have cooled off in the bedroom department, mostly this is my fault, I have gained weight and do not feel sexy and getting out of my own head is hard. But I do try. Last year I lost my brother unexpectedly at age 33. It was a huge blow, I was extremely depressed and overwhelmed with grief. I live in NY but am from Michigan. I drove back to Flew back to Michigan to be with my parents and siblings. When the news came my husband was in Scotland on business he immediately started wrapping things up and planned on coming home to be there for me. On my first night home I went out with my brother to get a drink. One turned into four, he left and I headed to the parking lot, and drove to the hotel I was staying at. On my way in I saw the hotel bar and decided to go in. To my surprise I ran into an old friend from high school and I stayed. Beers turned to shots and that's when things really went off the rails. We closed down the bar and I was hammered as was she so Simce she couldn't drive my I offered to let her stay at with me till morning. We went to my room and I honestly blacked out. When I woke the next morning Claire and I were both naked in my bed and her body was draped over mine. I smelled like sex, was a little sore. My makeup was half on my face and half on hers. And then along with a killer headache I had a very foggy memory of having sex with Claire. I was shocked at my behavior, but I was so lonely and sad. The next night when Claire showed up at my door I let her in and we had sex again. It felt good to be with someone and feel loved. I slept with her the next night also. It took three days for my husband to get back in the states, but when he did I felt horrible and told Claire I was done. I am not a cheater or at least I wasn't. I guess I'm bisexual, though I didn't realize it. Over the last ten months I have felt terrible and focused on making my marriage better. My husband is currently really happy. He doesn't know I am hiding this secret, he doesn't know I'm struggling with my sexuality, he suspects nothing is wrong. I feel like I should tell him what I did, and what I am, but I'm terrified it will hurt him deeply and he might leave me. So my question is should I tell him and possibly hurt him, or do I just suffer in silence and let him be happy? Would you want to know? I don't know what to do? Confused Jamie Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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