Almost been a month now since the BU. Guess i'm kind of bored today.

[AMC1995]

Man Do i miss my Ex. There's not a day where I don't think about her and what she's up to. We broke up in very good terms, I'd say one of the best BU in History. We both respect, admire, and appreciate one another. Just right now, she's handling alot of stress with her going out of state for College. The idea of of figuring out how to handle a LDR in an entirely new environment (college) really stressed her out so she decided to end it to have peace of mind while she preps for the Fall semester.I'm not sure if she'll contact me before then, but she knew I would work toward closing the location between us in a short amount of years, say 2-3 since I'm also studying right now.

 

I love her guys, I love her so much and I'm sure I wont get over her in the passing months and possibly years if she doesn't reconcile with me before then. We've been NC right after the BU in order to heal but guys I wish she'd contact me already. She was my best friend and someone I cherish dear to me. She's not somebody I need out of my life. Of course I know I can date other people locally, no duhh , but If I had the choice again to work things with her even if would be LDR again, you bet your asses I would in a heartbeat. I'm not moving on so I can be ready for my next relationship whether it be her or not, I'm moving on so I can soothe the pain and live my life comfortably again. I want to be as happy as I was before I met her, that's all. Of course there are certains things I can improve on myself,but those things are going to come naturally to me, not something I'm actively going to pursue.

 

It's funny though, during the BU she couldn't answer whether she loved me or not. She said she was confused and wasn't sure what her feelings were. Did she blindside me? ehh not really. I knew for a month she was having doubts of our future together ever since she got accepted into University.Must've hit her hard to affect her feelings like that. I could sometimes feel the inner struggle within herself when She told me she loved me the one day,then act distant toward me the next day. Some could say that her feelings were just waning naturally because of me and/or the LDR. That is possibly true, But I feel that her inner tumoir within herself was because of the new reality she's facing in a few months and the gravity of having to continue with the LDR at a University.

 

It hurts thinking about her with other people. She even said herself a week before the BU that she doesnt think that there'd be anyone else as compatible for her. Sometimes I take comfort in that statement, other times, I try not to think about it too much because who knows what will happen in the future between her and somebody else. I guess sometimes I want to hold on her to because there are things we planned to do with eachother. Even small things. How do you move on from someone when the relationship feels incomplete and when your own Ex is figuring out things herself? Regardless of that, I know, I have to move on for myself. I just wrote my feelings down today because I had nothing else better to do today and .. I wanted to text my ex today. I just miss her.. like . I'm not really sure what I'm looking for in terms of replies. I am holding on to hope that she will contact me.. maybe even soon. But i'm not waiting. i'm just trying to live my community college days before I transfer myself, normally. Just taking it one day at a time.

[J Miracle]

It sounds like your on track. Stay busy, don't let yourself get bored. If she wants to talk, let her do the extending. But she probably won't.

 

Are you leaving town after community college? If so, hang in there, universities are full of romantic opportunities that are also much more convenient than LDRs.

 

What you need is new lady company, of the local type.

 

Just remember: your thinking of her, she's not thinking of you.

[AMC1995]

It sounds like your on track. Stay busy, don't let yourself get bored. If she wants to talk, let her do the extending. But she probably won't.

 

Are you leaving town after community college? If so, hang in there, universities are full of romantic opportunities that are also much more convenient than LDRs.

 

What you need is new lady company, of the local type.

 

Just remember: your thinking of her, she's not thinking of you.

 

I'm not really looking that forward toward new romantic opportunities locally. Hitting up women for a fling or two? sure! why not. And yes, I've been talking with more women just to get those hormones pumping and maybe doing a little something something .

I told her that maybe it be best for us to stay NC until she was ready to contact me again. Who knows what that could mean in her mind, but she knows I want to get together.. I think. Lol, I'm sure I made it clear.

 

 

And I wouldnt be too sure to say that she's not thinking of me. Yes, she's busy studying for her classes right now and prepping for University, but I'm pretty sure she thinks of me.Why? because we were extremely tight. She was my best friend and everything. I'm confident in our old relationship to dare say that I could easily win her again if I was in her area, or the very least, help her ease the burden in some capacity. Do i know how much she's thinking of me and how intense those thoughts are? No, i don't. I only know that she's spending this time to focus on herself right now.

[MissCanuck]

Her going off to university would have only emphasized any doubts she had about you two. She is about to enter a totally different world, with new opportunities and new people. A lot of relationships, especially when the couple is young, don't survive that transition.

 

It seems she indeed cared about you but knew deep-down that she didn't share the same feelings you had. University is still several months away so my guess is that it's not the only reason she ended it. She knew she didn't have strong enough feelings to continue to try to make this work, and cited needing time to focus on school as a way out. I believe it's definitely a factor but not the ultimate reason. She did the right thing in letting you go if she felt her heart wasn't in it.

 

In time, it will get easier. I know everyone says that, but it's true. You'll have days like this when you miss her like mad, and other days in which you find yourself feeling curious about new opportunities.

[AMC1995]

Her going off to university would have only emphasized any doubts she had about you two. She is about to enter a totally different world, with new opportunities and new people. A lot of relationships, especially when the couple is young, don't survive that transition.

 

It seems she indeed cared about you but knew deep-down that she didn't share the same feelings you had. University is still several months away so my guess is that it's not the only reason she ended it. She knew she didn't have strong enough feelings to continue to try to make this work, and cited needing time to focus on school as a way out. I believe it's definitely a factor but not the ultimate reason. She did the right thing in letting you go if she felt her heart wasn't in it.

 

In time, it will get easier. I know everyone says that, but it's true. You'll have days like this when you miss her like mad, and other days in which you find yourself feeling curious about new opportunities.

 

Sorry, But I do believe that her feelings melted when it came to the realization of University and the thoughts of taking care of an LDR from that position. Her doubts didn't originate from the relationship itself. Of course if she had the same feelings as I, the relationship would've continued, just life opportunities got in the way. Now i'm stuck in this limbo phase because I know she's confused and uncertain about what she wants. She originally wanted to take a break(yes, i know that spells doom in the first place) but then decided to do a break up so she wouldn't have this umbilical chord attached to her while she enjoys her senior year without worries of having a set time to contact me and thinking about the pressures of an LDR while at University.

 

Of course i'm curious about opportunities, just right now, I feel the relationship is incomplete. I don't care much about meeting new women when i have this raunchy feeling. I have this gut feeling like there's got to be more between us. I know not to hedge my bets on this, but.. right now, she's just swamped with moving out of state to an Ivy league school.

 

As the month passed, I've come to realize that I can't be her friend indefinitely. I want more. Of course I have to move on, but I don't have the luxury to say that we aren't compatible and it's for the best that we broke off.