Cls12345 Posted February 14, 2017 Share Posted February 14, 2017 I'm having an extremely hard time trusting my husband. I have always had trust issues after seeing how my dad cheated on my mom. My husband says he knew this when we first started dating. The whole time we dated (which was about 2 years) I never suspected him of cheating on me. The way he has always treated me I wouldn't suspect it. He has always treated me amazingly. Like I didn't even know it was possible. We have been married for a year now. He's in the Air Force and we live in Japan. This is all new to us. Things were going great but with all the crazy shifts and the possibilities of him leaving for short deployments made me anxious again and worry that he would be unfaithful. (As far as I know he has not be unfaithful to me) We got into a big arguement one night and I packed my stuff because I got anxious about him leaving and said I wanted a divorce and worse things. Then he said he wasn't sure if he loved me anymore. Now he says he was just so mad during the fight that he said that. Fast forward to now. He started a new shift where he is home all day while I'm at work. I got a tracker app to see if he was going anywhere. I found some things that we couldn't explain but we know the tracker isn't 100% accurate and he reassures me. Tonight we were having a great night we have been fighting a lot recently because I just don't trust him at all. I'm know for having anxiety, depression and I think I have a low self esteem although I have been called beautiful my whole life. But tonight i found what looks like a little ball of a black persons hair in our bed. Now I work around a lot of African American people but I had changed and taken my hair down since being home from work. He supposedly only works with guys right now. I feel like he's cheating and that is the person he's cheating withs hair in our bed. I know he looked at porn while he was away from me for 7 months. Specifically black women because I found only one site in his history. He doesn't have any social media from what I know of unless he is really hiding it. He knows I don't trust him but still says he'll stand by me. I don't know what to do! I feel like I'm losing my ! I feel so horrible I just need advice and someone to talk to about this! Do you think he's cheating?! Link to comment
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