Still in love with my ex

[RoseQ]

Hi guys,

 

Im a 28 year old woman ,I am engaged to be married at the end of this year... but im going through a phase where I just don't understand myself, my fiance and I have been together for ,7 years on and off.. during the longest break up we were apart for a year...I met my ex during this time. Things between him and I went by so fast and i fell deep in love with him the connection was so strong... after a while he started acting a bit distant due to several family issues and he would disappear for a few days on end..I ended up being fed up with that as that was not what I was looking for in relationship it felt like he was using the family situation as a cover up for seeing someone else.. so I broke it off.. he would still try call me randomly out of no where to check on me or tell me he missed me or loved me etc..because I still cared for him this really played on my emotions. We would fight about it because I would want to be together but he didn't but claimed to love &'miss...till I one day made a decision to block him..since then I haven't.heard from him..I moved on got back with my fiance and we have been together since..... two days ago out of no where I received a Facebook video call at 2 it was my ex... I tried resisting the urge to answer but I did , we spoke for three hours about aspirations really just light chats while staring into each others eyes, He told me he Missed me that's why he had to see me , it just brought back memories of what it felt like to be friends at the.s same time made me miss him.as man...the way he smiled at me and looked into my eish it brought back all those emotions...Ive been feeling the same way since then...today I called him to tell him we cant talk any more as talking to him brought back all these emotions as he knows im engaged and I can't be doing that... he kept silent for abit and then agreed but seemed so hurt I hung up quickly to avoid saying anymore... I now miss him even more I think about him all the time, I wonder whats wrong with.me should I be getting married I truly do love my fiance. But I feel.confused..please help.me??