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I'm a 25 year old guy. I am homosexual and have Asperger's syndrome, which I have really overcome throughout the years. I work full time at Target and rent a room from a nice older lady. I enjoy hiking, exploring San Francisco (since I live pretty close to it), video games, Star Wars, comic book heroes, and art. I have a good saving account going and even a 401K plan. I'm very happy with of myself, and how much I have overcome and grown in my life. The only thing that is really difficult for me in life is people. I enjoy living and peaceful and independent life by myself, and love peace and serenity. My room makes me happy with all my wonderful statues and art.


I have worked for Target for about 6 years. Like everyone I have good and bad days. I'm trained in many different departments; sales floor, electronics, cashier, guest service, food ave and GSTL. This is my 3rd Target store I've been at and I primarily work at the front lanes. I get along great with all of the older people, and a few intelligent younger kids. The rest of the team I don't really care for, and a lot of them are very unintelligent and unprofessional. I tried making friends outside of work, but ended up being broken hearted and rejected many times. So I no longer have the desire for that.


One thing I just don't understand with people is their desires for sex, drugs and alcohol. I feel that people live their lives just for those things and I find it very unappealing and disgusting. I don't know how people feel good about taking their private parts and putting them in someone else. I don't how people think it's cool to keep consuming alcoholic beverages so they can act like idiots and then pass out and vomit. Then people think it's ok to consume smoke, weed, cigarettes and whatever else is out their, so they can numb their brain and feel high. This is why I feel appalled at society and have a hard time accepting and dealing with people. They think it's so cool to buy a crap load of beer and wine, and then feel so high and mighty when they buy condoms and lube so they can bang someone up. It makes me want to vomit, and I have to be happy for them? I've had many attractive guys who have tried to be with me, but I would never in a million years want to get involved in any of that stuff.


Life's really hard for me sometimes. I work so hard to be a strong, intelligent and independent person and am surrounded thousands of people who all live for those fixes. Some days I just wish I wasn't born. I try to find people who I can relate too and it feels impossible. I feel like people are all clones with different names and faces and I was born on a different planet. Feel the needed to vent about this. Can anyone else relate?

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It makes me want to vomit, and I have to be happy for them?

Who said you had to be happy for people? Why should you care so much about other people do in their own spare time? Worry about living your own life.


And oh btw, you live in a state that has legalized marijuana.

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i think a lot of people can relate, at least in a way, and to an extent.


it's normal to feel like the odd one out compared to the whatever lifestyle is most in use wherever you live.


it's also worth keeping in mind what you describe is absolutely not how everyone is.


another thing that helps is the habit of mentalizing peoples' condition. if judge them by how they live, and the contrast between their preferred lifestyle and yours, it's logical that you will feel like you can't relate. if you judge them by what is universally human, underneath the manifest level, they become a lot more like you than you imagined.


for example, have you given it thought to why people want to escape into sex, drugs, alcohol, why they seem obtuse with their preoccupation with mindless behavior, why it is the thought of them stopping to think as you put it is so unappealing to them? that they are simply naturally shallow, mindless, daft is most often not case- or at least not all of it.

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I think a lot of people relate to you. My son who has Aspergers definitely would. He finds all of that repulsive. He likes to

go to college do his work come home and play his online games, watch thousands of directors cuts for movies , think up strategies for his Yu-Gi-Oh games etc.

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Good for you. Sounds like you have your priorities in order. Socialize with your own kind. Nothing wrong with that. Continue to work, stay clean and join groups, clubs, activities that focus on clean living, such as hiking, sports, the outdoors,etc.. Also try volunteering.

I'm a 25 year old guy. I am homosexual and have Asperger's syndrome, which I have really overcome throughout the years. I just don't understand with people is their desires for sex, drugs and alcohol.

"Straight edge (sometimes abbreviated sXe or signified XXX or X) is a subculture of hardcore punk whose adherents refrain from using alcohol, tobacco and other recreational drugs, in reaction to the excesses of punk subculture. For some, this extends to refraining from engaging in promiscuous sex, following a vegetarian or vegan diet, and/or not using caffeine."

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