Recent Heartbreak

[FooledAgain]

I have not read a lot of other posts on here because my pain is so fresh and deep that I can only think (selfishly I know) of my own pain.

 

There is no fool like an old fool. I am a Canadian who has lived in Philippines for a long time. Its easy to find beautiful young girls who are attracted to older, foreign men. The trick is to realize that they will grow up and leave one day so don't fall too deeply in love with them.

 

I fell hard for her. I never expected to be this addicted to my little "bratty ass" (my pet name for her). My head know the break up had to happen and that its for the best but my heart is broken into little pieces. Some times I have it all together and some times I am ready to end it all. At that point I take a Valium and go to sleep so I am not looking for suicide intervention. I truly hope it does not get that bad but emotions are powerful.

 

Funny thing is I could have 3 pretty young replacements for her right here, right now and I only want my Yvonne. Tears come to my eyes just writing this down. Lots of tears flowing lately. I need to get them out. Its only been 10 days so it will be a while. I am a very passionate, romantic, giving kind of guy. Its what attracts ladies to me and its what makes them think they can walk all over me. But its me.

 

Thanks for listening.

[gebaird]

Please don't do anything you'll regret. Right now it might seem like your pain will never end, but time has a way of dulling pain, making it easier to cope with strong emotions.

 

Even though you are hurting, there are future joys in store for you. Make sure you're here to experience them.

[Wiseman2]

Sorry to hear this. How old was she?

I am a Canadian who has lived in Philippines for a long time. Its easy to find beautiful young girls who are attracted to older, foreign men. The trick is to realize that they will grow up and leave one day so don't fall too deeply in love with them. I could have 3 pretty young replacements for her right here, right now and I only want my Yvonne.