thatGirl12345 Posted January 19, 2017 Share Posted January 19, 2017 I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm 5 months away from getting my BS in IT (option in cybersecurity) and I feel so depressed. My only jobs have been dog walking and working as a TA. I feel that I should have had a successful by now but I chose to stay at home and help my family. I don't have student loans and I have a 4 month emergency fund just in case. I've been getting so many rejections because I lack job experience. I was close to dropping out a few months ago but my counselor convinced me that Cyber Security is a great career. I've been having nightmares about not finding work on a weekly basis. My anxiety is really high atm! I feel so stupid. I'm so close to graduation but no offers. My family wants me to graduate on stage but I don't deserve it. I think my life is too screwed up to get better. I don't want to go home and burden my family. They helped me out so much. I'm also afraid of never having my own family. I started dating recently after 3 years of being single. I've been too scared of having intimacy with any guy. What if he finds out I've been alone for so long? I'm not even talking about sex. I've been on a third date but was too nervous to kiss him. Both guys are so kind and funny so, it must be me! I just don't want to be 40 and never had kids/family. I appreciate any advice. I honestly don't know what to do Link to comment
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