NC day 0

[jmann45]

Met a girl a few months ago and we became best friends. then became bf/gf for a couple months.. today i was really stressed and just wanted a day off from her. she continuously invited me over so i decided to go over and kicked it at her house for a couple hours. Now that i look back, i was just in a horrible mood. at one point she asked if we can go out and eat, but i just wasnt in the mood. I ended up leaving after a couple hours and texted her saying that im going to be busy for a few days and ill text her when i have time. (we usually talk every single day at least 3 times a day and facetiming which got annoying).. and she texted back, saying we should take a step back. I was not expecting this.. i just asked her to be my valentine for next month, yesterday.. and she was really happy. but anyway, i texted back and said yeah i agree i have lots going on right now and its good if we take a step back. Then i texted her again after a few hours saying that i wanted to talk to her on the phone real quick (to let her know that im aware i was in a bad mood today) .. she texted back saying that she thinks its better if we remain friends. this literally broke me. I really liked this girl. im not sure if this all happened from today or if shes been talking to someone else all this time. Either way, im broken tonight. She was my best friend and girl friend. we got alone so well. I just responded saying, well your choice, later.

 

Im beyond broken. but i think i will go no contact. Her father usually has her buy stuff through me at my work (clothing ect) and im think she'll be calling in to buy clothing sooner or later. But my plan is to just leave it business and not take it any further and have a formal conversation if she ever does call. Im just hurt right now.. day 0 no contact today. day 1 starting tomorrow. the longest ive done nc is 5 days in past relationships..ive only tried it about twice before... Im very weak at this. Wish me luck. Im just confused and lost right now.

[gebaird]

Sorry to hear this. Try to find coping mechanisms that make it easier for you to handle stress. Taking it out on your loved ones is, as you've discovered, detrimental to all involved.

[Wiseman2]

Sorry to hear this. It sounds like you felt suffocated asked for space and she agreed to taking a step back. Lay back for a while and let things calm down.

 

Wait for her to contact you. When you ask for 'space' many people view that as a breakup, so she sort of headed you off at the pass with that.

then became bf/gf for a couple months.. today i was really stressed and just wanted a day off from her. and texted her saying that im going to be busy for a few days and ill text her when i have time. .. and she texted back, saying we should take a step back. .. she texted back saying that she thinks its better if we remain friends.

[jmann45]

I woke up to a missed facetime from her and i really debated on calling her back.. and i ended up trying to call her back. It rung and went to voicemail. Then i just messaged her saying "im assuming you clicked my name by accident..feel free to block me if it helps you lol. later". no reply..

 

If i was smarter i would have not responded at all. She could have texted me if it was something important. Im definately going to hold myself back if she calls and just hangs up again. She could have left a voicemail saying to call her back. But nothing..

 

tomorrow will be the official day 1 NC. Thank you all for the support. It helps

[jmann45]

The depression always kicks in about 5 days nc for me but i was gonna remain strong. todays been the most depressing day of these past 5 days of nc. i cant take it. the fact that it never works out. and i dont know why. Im starting to realize that im a huge introvert who attempts to be an extrovert because "society" says thats the "normal" way. I hate the fact that i like being alone a majority of the time. i hate the fact that when im with anyone, they drain me. thats when my real introvert tendencies start to show to them, then they leave. I dont understand how in any case being an introvert can attract women.

 

thats not the point though, im just venting. Im just tired of life. I dont feel like going to the gym. i dont feel like playing my guitar or going to school or work. i feel like leaving here tonight to travel. across the world where no one knows me.