Teenage Relationship (PLEASE HELP)

[BigBrainLOL]

Now, before the reply column has those "You are too young to be talking about such subjects young man, types of people" just give me a straight answer.

 

About Me:

Intelligent for age, I am a 15-16 y/o male in high school, Most girls my age consider me as cute(handsome) but not fine(six packs with strong chin), I am considered to be a good athlete, I am 5'4 140 pounds, one of the fastest runners out of 20 taller(some slightly), leaner classmates, I am a bit of a pyromaniac, I tend to be somewhat antisocial, I criticize gossip, I have a good street cred, I'm dark caramel(African American/Black) I am the student body representitave, a teachers pet, a known former gang affiliate, known troublemaker, known to hang around misfits and troublemakers. Most people see my two sides: Scholar and a Gangster

Tip of what I have included above is true, so consider what is listed above before you make a reply)

 

 

Now, this girl began going to my school and I immediately fell for her, and she started to show signs of interest in me. Now, she'd do some eye flirting and I'd eye flirt with her back, and it eventually led to this, and I will give the girl a nickname of Tanya and I a nickname of Darius

*Basic summary of when she asked me out*

 

I was walking around of the cafeteria to canteen, and I heard her ask one of my "friends" something. He came up to me and told me that Tanya asked for my kik(A popular teen social messaging app) username and wanted to go out. I gave it to him to give to her and told him to tell her that "Yea, Ima go out wit her" and then I heard her say a "really?!" *

 

Now, Tanya is mixed also but somewhat timid in terms of socialness. We spoke to each other seldomly at school when we changed classes, only having time i say a few words, and the only time I could talk to her being at Recess/Afterschool. Now, I got her phone number initially which led to boring, short conversations. One day after a short conversation she texted back saying she wasnt in the mood to talk, and next day I asked her if she was, and she said yea. Anyways, I talked to her in our freetime and told she told me that she is unsure about being in a relationship, as she wants to focus on her grades. She told me we can be best friends,I told her I still want to go out, we went out again for two days, the first day she showed signs that she wanted to continue, as I was talking to her and showing a bit of my gangster side(Which I dont like to do at school), yatatataa few conversations later she told me that all her previous relationships were girl-on-girl and all conversation stopped. I kept trying to talk to her, by messaging her on kik, trying to talk in school, calling her #, but failing miserably. After a while(One day) I figured she doesnt want any more talks with me so I just gave up on trying to get with her. She is avoiding me at school.

 

Backstory: We live in the same rural area, but I dont know where she lives, although two classmates of mine(That I have known for 2 years) both know where she lives, and have made small talk with her in class*which started to anger me ALOT* (I have psychopathic tendencies)

 

If more info is needed, ask in the reply section.

[BigBrainLOL]

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[ThatwasThen]

What is it you want "good answers" on? If its if you should keep trying to be with her then my "good answer" is NO you should not. She's a chick who doesn't know what she wants, who is by all accounts, more gay then straight.

 

Why would the "gangsta" in you even give her a side glance now that she's ignoring you?

[BigBrainLOL]

I have been asking myself the exact questions. I just wanted more views from how someone would view it.

[BigBrainLOL]

Since my grades are good in school Im wondering if I should go back to my past self, troublemaking and such. I typically do things against what everyone else does, just to prove I am different. But I wonder if I should not care much about anything.(I thought about this way before I met the girl)

[ThatwasThen]

Since my grades are good in school Im wondering if I should go back to my past self, troublemaking and such. I typically do things against what everyone else does, just to prove I am different. But I wonder if I should not care much about anything.(I thought about this way before I met the girl)

 

Your grades might be good but if you had good sense in general, the last thing you would be contemplating is going back to your "troublemaking" persona. No one worth being in good standing with wants a troublemaker amongst them. yaknowwhati'msayin?

[BigBrainLOL]

I see myself as mentally conflicted, after having childhood trauma(Watching EXTREMELY gory movies, having immediate family deaths, reading creepypasta etc.

I am way more comfortable in a violent place(Bad Neighborhood) than at school or social events, as I am more used to it.

[ThatwasThen]

Well, continue on being in good and decent social events and having positive results at school and you'll naturally become more comfortable in the positive situations and the negative situ's will seem less "safe" for you.

[melancholy123]

You never actually said what your question is. I think it's typical of kids your age to try to be different, to show other sides of themselves, whether or not they are genuine parts of the personality or not. You seem like you want to head to a life of danger, is that what you really want or are you trying to impress someone? I hope you dont develop your gangsta style, it doesnt bode well for a good life.

 

As for this girl, why not just have her as a friend? She seems flakey so maybe back off and see if you can cultivate a friendship first.