Yesterdays Tears

[empathyneo19]

It has been over two years since my ex - girlfriend and I separated. At the time I was devastated. I did not think I would have the strength to go...I was wrong.

 

I have been doing a lot better since those days have passed. I will not lie, it has been a struggle at times. I have my good days and bad days. There are days when I am still angry with her. I realized I was not upset over the ending of our relationship. I was upset/angry because of the way she mistreated me. She was an abusive alcoholic who blamed me for her addiction.

 

It took time but I realized she has some severe issues and damages. I feel sorry for her but there is nothing I can do for her. I have not dated since we parted ways because I do not wish to. Living with her was a trauma. Thankfully it is over.

 

It gets better and easier overtime. I'll admit I am lonely sometimes but that is okay. As my friend said I will always have my art. I have a good job, I was promoted and am a proud uncle. I like to look back at my previous post to see where I was and where I am today.

 

I was hurt, I was hurt very deeply by someone I once loved. Her verbal abuse became worse as time went on. I felt like a kid again being abused my father.

 

It gets better...trust me. If you are hurting today..just look ahead and know that pain will be less and less with each passing moment. It was rough but I am strong and my strengths helped me to overcome.

[gebaird]

Good for you for getting yourself out. There comes a point where you just have to realize things are not going to get better and it's time to walk away and stay away. I hope your story gives hope to many others on this site who are in similar situations. Things are not perfect for you, but they are better than they were. And that definitely counts for something.

[jujusamples]

I'm glad to hear you are doing better! You are right, it does get better as time goes. You will always learn something from every relationship. This one has helped you be a stronger person and to realize that things DO get better. The hurt will pass and you are a step closer to being a better person and to meet a better person for you. All the best!

[nihongo]

Nice story! Thanks for taking the time to post it!