Yes i want to reach out to ex.

[Lightjocj]

Meh...to some up my short story( see past posts for details), broke up with ex about 4 months ago, been in NC for a little over a month now, up untill a month ago we would have very short light conversations, me always initiating them. But i would always get a reaponce. Then a month ago all that stopped. Yup i still peek at FB..hes out partying it up drinking ect. ( seems normal for the dumper from what iv been reading) to do those things though? Seems he developed more of a wild side from the pictures iv been seeing anyways( yes i know i shouldnt be looking) but who are we kidding,us dumpies tend to be curious at times, we all do it,or have done it. Anyways, iv been doing pretty good, been going out ect. Managed to go to a larger Fair\ Carnival last night with some friends and had a decent time. Anyways the ex was on my mind though, the only thing that keeps me from texting or reaching out is-i sent 2 texts and 1 email awhile back but got no responce, the texts and email had nothing to do with the relationship..they were hey how are you,,hows work type of texts. I relize if he wanted to get ahold of me he sure as hell could. Pretty sure hes not seeing anybody, not that its my bussiness or matteres i suppose. Just wanted to try another reachout though...too soon? There are days that i do feel good btw, and enpowered that he lost a dimond and had it all with me. I get into the- i was way to good for him anyways, hes out having a good time? Partying, drinking? I can do all those things, probably more so then him actually. But id still like him around for some reason. Whats the worst that can happen, he doesnt respond? Or he says hi back. Anyways...i dunno it was just a thought.

[Wiseman2]

No contact would be better for healing/moving on than repeated no response, no? ](*,)

i sent 2 texts and 1 email awhile back but got no responce

[Lightjocj]

No contact would be better for healing/moving on than repeated no response, no? ](*,)

I know and agree, i think when i really look it, its more about me in that moment. Im texting because it makes me feel better in that moment, but, as soon as that moment passes and i get no responce i feel pain again...although somebody had an alternative view on it. They said sure go ahead and text. When you dont get the responce not only will you feel like a tool,but you will get angry. I can see the anger part of it, as there have been days that i do feel anger. Its a gamble, no doubt id feel like i lost some dignity, but im not surs if id throw my hands up and give up( my Awakening) or feel sad. Im still waiting for that day when i just dont give a f&$k. Some days im so busy thats how i feel..and to be honest some days i think to myself yano..letm miss me damit..maybe he does maybe not, because i really dont know the ans im leaning towards, the party time will get old along with drinking, and when that all gets old he may just think how good he had it..