rhw Posted August 5, 2016 Share Posted August 5, 2016 It's been a while since I've posted. After 7 months of living in Italy, I am FINALLY starting to come around. WHEW! That was rough, but looking back, it's already life changing. I can feel it in my bones that I am changed. I am starting to see the beauty and enjoying the ride. Having said all that though, I am going back to the states, just for a little visit. A vacation if you will and I leave tomorrow. The thing is, as much as I wanted to go back the moment I stepped foot here, I am struggling with it now. I know deep in my core that my soul NEEDS just a little break from this place. I feel that I need to go back, see family...familiar faces and just recharge my battery. But again, I am struggling with it a bit. I have a bit of anxiety about leaving my husband. Since we got here this will be the first time we've been apart. I am a Navy wife and I know what it is to be apart, but this is the longest length of time that we have been TOGETHER in eight years. I am only going for six weeks, but still. We are in such a good place in our marriage right now, probably the best it's ever been and I don't want to halt that because I go. I want to believe that we are much stronger and solid than that, but I really don't know. I know I NEED to go and I will regret it if I don't. I really want to see my mom, we didn't leave on the best of terms when I saw her last and I just need to see her and love her. And my niece and nephew are growing up and I just don't want to miss it. I am extremely close to my family and I just have this great sense of everyone is getting older (especially my grandparents and parents) and time is precious. It's only six weeks and I know my husband will be fine. He's MY family now and he is the one I will always go back to. Why am I having such a hard time with this? It's just my own anxiety getting the best of me I guess. I always feel this way when we part, I feel the same way when he leave, it's just I am the one doing the leaving this time..... Just needed to vent and could use a little unbiased outside input.... Link to comment
melancholy123 Posted August 5, 2016 Share Posted August 5, 2016 Maybe you are just so much happier now than you were and you dont want it to end or change. Makes sense to me! As you say it's only 6 weeks but would you be able to cut it shorter, say go for 4 weeks? Link to comment
rhw Posted August 5, 2016 Author Share Posted August 5, 2016 I thought about that and it may be a good idea Link to comment
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