SHE SAID: "I Just Fell Out Of Love..."

[UnicrnPrncess]

4 years her and I have been together, we used to pride ourselves on the fact that we rarely fought...

 

About 6 months ago things began to feel different more fighting, more yelling, less kissing, & almost no hugging. Until one day last week her simple words overfilled my soul to the point where it shattered:

 

"I just dont want to try anymore, I have become broken and lost myself I dont think there's fixing us, as I am simply not in love with you anymore as YOU werent the girl I originally fell in love with".

 

Hurt, Sad, Discouraged -- This is a feeling I knew all to well from my previous relationship; IMMEDIATELY I went into panic mode blaming my self, wanting to die feeling so low as someone who isnt worth the chance to right my wrongs for a relationship of 4 years.

 

I hated this person, this disgusting shell of an unloveable woman that Ive become over the 4 years that pushed her own girlfriend away ....

 

I looked in the mirror because I needed to see what she saw...My heart sunk as my eyes filled with tears staring at my own reflection:

 

"DAMN YOU DANIELLE, look at you...She doesnt even love you." That is what I told myself over and over...How UNWORTHY I am of love....

 

Til last night, Something in my lingering soul told me that something wasnt quite right...I looked through our phone bill (hello 1997 I would like to give you your stalking mode back) ...But low and behold four thousand (4000) minutes last month of conversation exchanged on the phone ... I guess my girlfriend has been talking to her new girlfriend .... I called the girl...she didnt answer but immediately texted knowing EXACTLY who I was...

 

BUT this fight wasnt about her ... So I politely told her that ANY WOMAN that goes into a relationship with someone who is with someone else...DESERVES all of the bad Karma that is coming and involves her Situationship.

 

My Problem Is This:

 

I MOVED to this state to be with her...no family, no friends....and now...stuck in our apartment together ...financially intertwined its maddening, but I found a career here -- So I am unsure as part of me knows I am a KICKASS PrincessUnicorn that will make it through and part of me feels that Im not ever going to be okay....

 

I AM Drowning in my own mind....

[Emptyspace]

Hello,

 

So sorry you're here under these circumstances. I'm going through something similar myself right now so understand the pain and trauma.

 

I'm afraid I don't have any useful advice though, just keep feeling your feelings, without reacting...healing can only take place if your feelings come out...and keep posting here? Or keep a journal. It'll help you get your thoughts straight.

 

Is there any way you can go and stay somewhere else for a few days? A motel or something? Some time apart might help you gather your thoughts and come up with a plan.

 

Big hugs xx

[Silver star]

I have a string of failed long term relationships behind me and up until my recent break up of 3 weeks ago (3 yr long), always thought I was the common denominator, so I was unlovable etc......I now realise that is just not true and the right person has just not met me yet.

 

I've had years of self hate and self doubt and realise that I need to be kind to myself, something I've never ever been my entire life. I came from pain and have kept that pain going all by myself. It's time I stopped it. The original pain left years and years ago, but I've kept it alive! Silly me. I'm learning very very slowly to look after me and if the right person comes along, maybe I'll let them in....but if no one comes along, I know I'll be ok. x

[UnicrnPrncess]

Hello,

 

So sorry you're here under these circumstances. I'm going through something similar myself right now so understand the pain and trauma.

 

I'm afraid I don't have any useful advice though, just keep feeling your feelings, without reacting...healing can only take place if your feelings come out...and keep posting here? Or keep a journal. It'll help you get your thoughts straight.

 

Is there any way you can go and stay somewhere else for a few days? A motel or something? Some time apart might help you gather your thoughts and come up with a plan.

 

Big hugs xx

Thank you for your kind words! ... I think I am okay, my rock to help me get through this in the beginning was my exes ex! I reached out to her and she has helped me very much.

 

I am looking on craigslist for a roomate, I will be starting my new adventure soon!!

 

Yay! Healing takes time and I no longer trust a much anymore maybe ill be able too again.