2.5 months NC - Think Im near ready

[jenbrooks]

After 2.5 months of absolute silence from both of us, I think I am almost ready to open my heart and welcome new love.

 

during these two months, a lot has happened. I bought a townhome, exercise daily and continue to do so, go to the steam room after work, family and friends keep me constantly busy during the weekends, and work is indeed getting better.

 

Recently there's a guy that lives in my apartment complex, we see each other randomly in the elevator and would exchange eye contact and said hello to each other. We both are shy and never said much to each other, but it did give me a smile and thought about love and happiness with someone new. I thought this day would never come. I am happy that there is a crush on my mind now and the ex is not taking up all of my heart and mind anymore.

 

I am moving to my new home by the end of April and I won't be able to see this guy again in the elevator, oh well, maybe we will see each other again somewhere in the complex before I move.

 

I have a demo to give at work in front of 200 engineers, a bit nervous but looks like I was engaged in the project so much that it sort of became my baby. When people think about this feature, they think about me now. This is another validation that I did the right thing to break up with the ex. Else I would have failed this feature or possibly be fired.

 

All of my friends are excited for the house warming party, and each one of them is truly proud of me during these past two months.

 

I'd like to keep it cautious still because if he initiates contact now, its very possible that I will go see him and my life would go backward again. I wonder if this feeling will ever end.

 

I am now able to do things on my own, keep myself busy but beginning to feel the loneliness of not having someone to share the good timed and bad times with. And it certainly won't be with my ex because I can't imagine going back to something that neglected me for six months of the year...again..

 

Oh and one more thing! I still see my therapist every Friday. Omg! It has turned me into a loving, caring, authentic, and honest person! I'm still working on this though.

[ChilliRed2013]

You have done some amazing things for yourself!

Thanks for sharing a positive vibe

[ChilliRed2013]

Not sure why my posts seem to appear twice lol.

Edit and add: Steam room sounds great as well! Way better than a hot shower?

[jenbrooks]

Not sure why my posts seem to appear twice lol.

Edit and add: Steam room sounds great as well! Way better than a hot shower?

 

It's like heaven. Once you're in, everything feels super warm, calm, relaxing, and the whole entire day of stress and worries just left you. When you go home, you just want to go to sleep.

 

I hope everyone on here will reach this point. I wanted to share because it's pretty much what I do everyday. I think doing it consistently makes a big difference, possibly might be the secret.