Jotting down my thoughts

[xyeah28]

I have so many things running through my head lately I was hoping this would could help me sort them out and use for future references =)

 

So today is my basic Monday morning. 5:40 alarm goes off, wake up, let dogs outside, get dogs food, take shower, let dogs outside, and I'm laying back in bed by 6:00. Alarm goes off at 6:30 and now my day begins.

 

Work has been slow today, no orders came in so I basically have nothing to do since my summer help is doing the other part of my job. Fine with me though, I could use a break. After work I'll do my little, and when I say little I mean like 5min, of exercises just to keep the toning in my arm/leg muscles. I know it's not much but I feel it is helpful a little. Last week I went to my parents house to do the elliptical machine for 20min but I was only able to find time for 2 days worth. Again, better than nothing. There goes my thoughts again, I can't even finish what I was going to say lol After my excersises I'll start making dinner (shredded chicken with salsa verde) so it will be done when my boyfriend gets home from work. He is always so hungry. I kinda want to go to a movie tonight since we both don't have to work our second jobs tonight but I've been trying to save money lately. My goal is to have my car paid off (11k left) and get a new car. I hate my car now and I don't know why I bought it. But I want it paid off so that way I don't feel completely screwed over in the end. So anyways we will probably end up taking the dogs on a quick walk and watch tv the rest of the night. Exciting, right? Isn't that was every 23-25 year old does? Monday is almost his only rest day and it's only 1 of 2 of mine so I think it's usually needed by the time it comes around.

 

I really want to plan a day trip to Chicago since I only live about 2 hours away. But the driving thing and parking thing is stopping me. I don't know why I get scared about such stupid things that other people do everyday. I also want to go to Six Flags, but I need to talk my scaredy cat boyfriend into, well, not being scared lol I like how I just said I'm trying to save money but I want to plan a trip. Oh well, you need to spend a little to live a little sometimes.

[xyeah28]

Had a craving for cookies yesterday so I looked online for "healthy" cookie alternatives and found 2 with bananas. So I went to Walmart to get just bananas 'cause I had everything else. One cookie was mashed banana, quick oats, walnuts and mini chocolate chips and that's it. It wasn't the best "cookie" but it hit my sweet tooth just fine =) The other one was a no-bake that was mashed banana, peanut butter, quick oats and mini chocolate chips. Same results as the other one. Better than a regular cookie though so all is well. Tuesday's are hang out with my sister day. Not sure what we are doing yet since she doesn't get off work until an hour after me. I guess I should clean my house a little when I get home so she doesn't think I'm messy-er than her! lol Her house is always, not dirty per se, just cluttered I guess. Makes me always want to have my house clean and neat. I got the kitchen cleaned up yesterday after my cookie making so the rest is a piece of cake.

 

Pyro, my dog, took is steroid pill today for the meningitis he has. Next one is on Friday. Every week, Tuesday and Friday. he's down to half a pill each time. I'm not sure how long I want to keep him with this schedule. So far so good. Last time when I took him off completely he was back to doing terrible after only a month. I'm hoping to get him down to just half a pill once a week and hopefully that will be fine for him for a long time. I don't want to start the process all over again of a pill a day, to a pill every other day, to a pill once every 3 days, then what I'm doing now.

 

Tha's all I have for now. Not much going on in my head today so I guess I get a little break from my thoughts lol

[xyeah28]

I took off work a couple hours early yesterday. I took the dogs for a walk and then cleaned my house. Oh joy. Had a good time with my sister.

 

I've been thinking about getting rid of my Dish lately because it is just too much money. I pay $72 a month to watch probably less than 10 shows. I have a fast internet with another company that you can get cable tv through as well, as a package deal which would be about $80 for tv+internet. Right now I pay $65 for just the internet. But I don't like that company and don't want my tv with them too. I'm already stuck with them for internet because my choices are very limited. Luckily, I haven't had any problems yet and I've been with them almost 2 years. So I was thinking, since I have a good high speed internet, wireless router that I use wifi with my phone, ipad, ps3, and Wii once I set it up, why not get Netflix AND Hulu Plus. They are both about $8 a month which is nothing compared to what I'm paying now. Netflix is good for the older seasons of tv shows + movies, and Hulu would be better to keep up with the new stuff + movies. That's why I'm thinking just get both. Plus, some of the shows I watch are also online on the tv networks website like, the next day. So that's not bad either. $65+8+8=$81, sounds like a win to me lol Now I have to figure out if I'm still locked in with my Dish. If I am, then it's a 2 year contract meaning it will be up in November. So it's really not too far away. That helps me save money to pay off my car as well =p

 

Speaking of, I saw my old car yesterday when I was driving home from seeing my boyfriend. I always want to cry when I see that car. That sounds really stupid, but I really really really miss that car. I wish I didn't trade it in. Good news, everytime I see it the car looks clean and in good shape. So I'm happy that whoever has it is taking care of it. My 2-3 year plan is to trade in my current car next year somewhere between June-September. It will be paid off and a dealer should give me about 17k, 16k at the lowest. The car I want (the new Mazda 3 coming out soon swwwwweeeeetttt) with the trim I want will be about 24-25k. That's under a 10k loan so I should be able to pay off that car in about a year. Then a year after that, I'm wanting to get a second car. I want a small suv/crossover, possibly a truck with AWD 'cause I have it now and I like it. That car would be the car I can just throw the dogs in and use when I don't want to get my Mazda dirty. So either I would get a used one, only like 1-3 years old, or new, but a low-end new car. Or the young side of me wants to keep the Mazda and then buy like a Nissan 370z Nismo lol Obviously I wouldn't want to be driving that car in the winter when it's all snowy out, so that's what the Mazda is for. But then I would have to build a 2 car garage at my house because I'm not sticking a new car outside lol

 

I've been thinking about that already anyways, building a 2 car garage. I have an alley in the back of my house and almost every house on my street has a garage with the door on both sides so they can use the alley or their driveway. Of course, my house doesn't. My 1 1/2 car garage would need to be tore down and the new one would need to be moved up because my garage back wall is lined up with the alley which no other garage is. If I end up deciding I don't want to move for a long time, I will get a 2 car garage. I think once I get my house to how I want it, I won't want to move.

 

My house is a ranch with a basement. It has 2 bedrooms upstairs and a finished room with a bathroom downstairs. The room downstairs is huge, the closet is huge, and the bathroom is a really good size. I want that to be my bedroom. That room had really cheap carpet down there that I tore out and it's been just an empty room with a concrete floor since about May lol I stuck the dog cages down there since it stays cool. But anyways, that room is considered a bedroom because it has an egress window. I haven't decided if I want carpet or vinyl wood planks down there. I need to paint first before I put a floor down though. Then I don't have to worry about getting paint on the floor. My uncle has been busy all summer, he can do a lot of work, flooring, electrical, plumbing, just lots of stuff. The other thing I need before I move my bedroom downstairs is to do something with the bathroom shower. It is just this small shower stall right now that just won't work for me lol I'm hoping my uncle has a good suggestion about what I can do with that.

 

So after I get my basement all done and move my bedroom, the upstairs is next. My uncle put in a countertop and pantry in my kitchen already, so the kitchen doesn't need anything done. Everything upstairs does need painted though. My house was built in the mid 50's and after my dog tore up my carpet in one of the bedrooms, I discovered a BEAUTIFUL wood floor. My boyfriend tore out the carpet from just that room (I only have my computer in there currently..and a futon) and the floor looks wonderful. There is nothing wrong with it. It just needs to be re-finished again. I'm hoping the living room, hallway, and other bedroom floors look just as good. I don't want carpet upstairs anymore, I want that wood. My uncle can do that too =) I'm so excited for this fall so I can start getting some of this stuff done.

 

Well that's what has been on my mind lately. Some other stuff too but I'm sure I'll get to that later

[xyeah28]

I hate when the truck shows up late at my second job. I got to work at 5 like normal, and the people were still there unloading the truck that just came in. Of course, my pallets are always on the back of the truck and they had pretty much just started. I'm not going to wait 1 1/2 - 2 hours for them to finally get to my stuff. So I went home. Hoping today I can leave early from my full-time job to get a head start at my other job so I'm not at work all night. Only lately this has been happening. Before, it was almost always guaranteed that everything would be ready to go by 5 when I got there. In the last 2 months, this has to be atleast the 10th time something has gone wrong. I told myself once I make a certain about of money at my full-time job then I can quit my part-time job. I would feel bad for leaving though. I've had been with them for 5 years and I know every aspect of that job. No one else does. I don't know how my boss let a part-time person become the know-it-all but that's how it happened lol I didn't use to be part-time though, I only went to part-time when I started my other full-time job. The new job has more opportunities for me which is why I did that. Anyways, busy day today. Need to get a lot of stuff done at work now so I can leave early. Doesn't help that today is of course the busiest day of my week.

[xyeah28]

Work wasn't bad yesterday. It didn't take as long as I thought it was going to so I ending up getting home at the same time by boyfriend got done at work so it worked out pretty well. Friday's are usually pretty slow at my full-time job but I usually have a lot to do at my part-time job. I get done at 3 and then go to the other at 5. I probably won't be home until about 10pm. Poor dogs, I feel bad for them on Wednesday's and Friday's because I work most of the day. Oh well, I make up for it over the weekend since I only have to work at 1 job.

 

Not much else. Looking forward to sleeping in tomorrow since I don't have to go to work until 5pm.

[xyeah28]

Busy weekend as usual. Got off work Friday around 10pm and just watched tv for about an hour until I fell asleep on the couch. Didn't get up to go to bed until 1am when my boyfriend got done at work. The dogs didn't let me sleep in Saturday or Sunday morning so I was up before 8:30 both days. Lots of work Saturday night too, about 5 hours. Usually Saturday is a 3-4 hour day at my part-time job. Sunday night was fairly easily at work. Got home before 8pm to watch American Ninja Warrior. My boyfriend also got home soon after that, very slow day for him. Did some laundry, still have clothes sitting in the dryer though. I should probably finish that today lol I can never seem to finish the laundry all in one day.

 

I don't know if I said my sister and her husband decided they would go to Six Flags with me and my boyfriend. We are going to wait until October, like the first or second week, to go during fright fest. Then it won't be super hot either. I hate hot. I love winter time, I love the temperature to be around 30-40 degrees. And I love my snow =)

[xyeah28]

Not too busy at work. Tomorrow we are having food day because my summer help is leaving after tomorrow. Back to being solo.

 

My sister and her husband are coming over for dinner. My sister just informed me she wants something with bacon in it lol She's not a big cooker, so she usually likes me to make something. Yet she is the older one and is married, at 26 you would think she could cook. But she even burns ramen noodles.....don't ask lol. We were going to try and go to the pool yesterday but of course it started raining at the time we wanted to go. Then soon after it was bright and sunny like nothing happened. Oh well, we still have a few more weeks of the pools being open.

 

I didn't finish the laundry yesterday, I thought about it but I just watched tv instead. I don't know why I have a hard time finishing laundry, I just never feel like doing it.

[xyeah28]

Food day was good. All of what I brought it almost gone =) Work at my part-time job later today. Oh joy.

 

I've been thinking about going back to school. I have an associates degree, not really wanting to pursue my 4 year, so I was thinking about getting a certificate to help me out for future job openings at my full-time job. The certificates I'm looking at are about 20credit hours which wouldn't be too hard to manage. I figure I'll only be able to take 2 classes a semester, 3 if I can get an online one. My job will reimburse me the money for classes/books if I get a good enough grade so money-wise, it doesn't matter too much. I just have to come up with the money up front and then I'll have motivation to do well since that's how I'll get paid back lol I wouldn't be able to start until the spring semester so I have a little while to think it over.

[xyeah28]

Nothing feels better than putting hand sanitizer on and finding cuts on your hands you didn't know were there...

 

I can't believe it's been 6 months since I wrote in this. It seems like only a month ago. Time really flies the older you get and I'm not even that old.

 

Applied for a different job last week, I can't stand a certain someone I work with and I don't feel like I'm going anywhere here so I figured it's time to go. Fingers crossed I can get out of here and move on, I feel like I've been stuck.

 

I started talking to two people that I've known for quite some time (but never met) and it feels good knowing they are still there for me. I don't have many friends where I live (okay, none now since one finished school and moved back home and the other moved away), but I still have them. It's easy to realize how different people can be just by the places they live. These two could not be more opposite and I actually feel somewhere in the middle of them. Makes sense one being on the west coast, me being in the midwest and the other being on the east coast =)

 

I've been thinking about some of the decisions I've made this past year, and unfortunately I'm regretting most. But maybe explaining that can be for another day.

[xyeah28]

Well, I've managed to get myself into the same predictament that I've been in for about 4 years now. Or, at least, I've never fully addressed it. I never allow myself enough time between and I need to figure out why I keep letting this happen.

 

Go for it or don't go for it? Seems simple enough but there's always complications involved. And not just minor ones. If they were, I would go with it and deal with the risks later. I feel like I'm wasting time when I know what I want, but why can't I just dive in? I need time alone to work out everything in my head, unfortunately I don't have that luxury.