Sukiyaki Posted July 19, 2012 Posted July 19, 2012 It's late where I am, and I just have a lot of thoughts going on in my head. I just got finished crying again after coming from a long trip. I just thought about all I did this past month and a half and I feel like I've caused a lot of damage that I have only myself to blame. I've done a lot..I feel like it's all my fault I'm feeling like this. My ex told me he was doing great. Yet I feel like ****.. I always tend to think he has the perfect life and nothing ever goes wrong in it...I still think that. Yet, things tend to fall apart around me. When I think positive, the worse begins to happen..I'm young, and I'm suppose to have a lot of things to look forward too, but I'm afraid. I'm afraid to be happy because once I'm happy something bad will happen again..Maybe he'll see me and still not want me.. I'm afraid to go back to college knowing that I'm truly alone. I'm afraid to do anything..I think I'm better having apathy....my phone is lost in all my crap..where it belongs..
losty83 Posted July 19, 2012 Posted July 19, 2012 sukiyaki *hugs*.... know this though, it's normal how you are feeling right now... i get that feeling all the time, where, i blame myself for the BU, and that it seems like everyone else's lives are fine and dandy... by the sound of it, it seems like you just recently broken up with you ex?? stay strong... just ride out all these emotions coming thru, cry if you must, let it out, it will only get better from here on.. as everyone says, let time heals all wounds... keep posting here ....
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