This. Is. Hopeless.

[PurpleDinosaur]

I'm not even sure where to start. Perhaps I'll just start with the fact that my house has once again returned to the cold unfeeling building that I happen to inhabit with three other people. Recently I had another fight with my sister (one of the residents), swearing and screaming. She also used the "your just like dad" line again. There are few people on this earth that I despise more than my father, but I can't help notice I'm making the stupid mistakes he makes. Maybe I'm just noticing it because my sister has been mentioning it? Our relationship had improved over the last few months and all of a sudden it's broken. Life around the house was actually tolerable. But now it's like she hates me, and I can't seem to figure out why.

 

I guess I should also talk about the fight. I had come home from classes Monday, and she was eating lunch. She made a cheeseburger in a frying pan, and when she was done she left everything out. All her dishes, all the condiments, other food like the rolls and the cheese. She just left it all expecting me to clean all of it up, and since I was also cooking at the time, there was no way for me to distinguish what had been brought out by who. So I cleaned up everything, save for the pan which contained a notable amount of leftover grease in it, thinking that she would come back and clean it up eventually, and she just forgot about it. After a while I came back, and the pan was still there, and the grease got all waxy (I think it's because it cooled and the fat returns to it's normal state at room temperature). It was disgusting! When I asked her to clean it up she just ignored me. I asked her several more times and eventually she came downstairs, threw the pan into the sink and ran some water over it. Leaving the fat still in the pan. The situation pretty much just escalated from there. Eventually I called my mom to see if she could handle the situation a little better, but her car had broken down, and she was in no mood for this. When she got home, she was pissed at me! The only reason I told Maggie to clean the mess in the first place was so that when mom came home and saw a mess in the kitchen, she would be mad at me for not cleaning it up, or some crap like that.

 

I'm also in the process of trying to get into collage. Trying being a key word there. I think I can get into S.C.A.D. but they needed two letters of recommendation. I'm currently taking classes at the University of Phoenix, and there awful! Never before have I been more disappointed with school. I mean, classes that teach subject-verb agreement? No one would take a degree from here seriously. The worst part is that each class is only four hours long, one class every week for five weeks, then you go onto another one. So despite taking classes, my professors probably wouldn't even recognize me if I saw them again. I have no work experience, I.E. no references from past employers, so my only option would be to ask my high school teachers for letters. But it's the summer, so they don't check their school e-mail accounts. I called the school to see If there was anything I could do to get a hold of my teachers, but they said they can't help me. By-the-way, I started this months ago, I thought I could get this done and finally get out of here, and on with my life, but it's not looking like that's going to happen until the spring (or maybe the winter, I think S.C.A.D. has trimesters, but I'm not 100% sure) The uncertainty of this whole situation means that I don't know where I'm going to be in a few months, and I would get a part-time job, but again, I don't know where I'll be in the next couple of months.

 

Which leads to my final act where, today, my mom told me I probably won't be getting into collage any time soon and should stop being so lazy and just get a job.

 

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Thanks, good to know that I'm not just imagining this situation as impossible, and should just give up now. God forbid I need any kind of encouragement, I have food and cloths don't I? Maybe I really should just swallow an entire bottle of adderall and be done with it. Everyone else's life would be less miserable.

 

Well, I guess that's enough rant for now. Thanks for reading, I just have no idea what to do or where to go at this point.

[blueidealist24]

Are you sure the University of Phoenix is that awful? Would it maybe be better than nothing? If you find the classes annoying could you change to different subjects or are these basic English classes required?

[PurpleDinosaur]

Yes, they are part of the core curriculum.