Just broke up

[Authentic]

Hello, i have another post on this forum that explains what lead to this.

 

Tonight we broke up well about 3hour's ago, as you will notice in that other thread, we talked and everything seemed fine, However she kept saying how weird i was being and saying i was been too nice, so today after she had been saying it for like 8hours and about 4 day's before today i snapped a bit

 

And i was like look what the hell does been weird mean, explain to me please so i can understand, she instantly got on the phone to her sister and said "I wanna come home" and i was just in shock like what the hell, so now i am sat here crying like a huge girl and i cannot stop and it hurts so bad, we broke up before for 6months and it was torture for 4months or so, we would have been together 4year's on the 21st of august ( Not including the time we spent apart in the last break up ) and even then, i was left feeling like this and i know it heals with time, and all that stuff but even in them 5months last time, i did not want to know anyone i was so miserable and did not want to do anything except cry.

 

So, tonight we broke up and im crying as im typing this but i just need someone to talk to really, i loved her so much it was un-true and if she would have explained i would have been able to deal with it but she did not and im really hurting can't stop crying because i know the next 5months will be like the last, and i just don't want to do it i love her so much.

 

P.S, The last time we broke up she acted fine and then 6months down time the when we started talking she said she acted strong infront of people but at night time when she was alone in bed she would cry herself to sleep, i stopped crying myself to sleep after a few days but the hurt was there.

 

Im just wanting someone to talk to really, as im so hurt at the moment as im sure alot of you can imagine.

[jj1985]

Man that sucks!

 

Thats the thing with some people, they dont open up and arn't truthful!

 

If she had of opened up and expressed her views you might of been able to help, do things differently etc.

 

I blame expect you for snapping and tbh it doesnt sound like you snapped a lot! I'd expect her to elaborate more on how your being differednt!

 

My ex who I just split with had an abortion and went distant and this caused us to split. She didnt open up to me and she lied about why she wanted to split and gave some absolute bulls**t excuse that was actually laughable! I know for a fact the excuse was false adn there is more to it however if they dont open up to you, you cant help

 

You have recovered before and will again, theres nothing wrong with crying, i was in floods of tears last week!

[Authentic]

Hmm, my first post was a total disaster, note to self do not post while crying onto the keyboard and not thinking look's like garbage.

 

To be honest, it was normally me who would not open up that's what caused us to break up last time, she said i was never honest with her and i was a typical bloke except i never spoke about anything personal at all, i would switch off and i still did for a while after we got back together i said to her that i would be different and i was, i never did talk about feelings, but if i knew it was going to get in the way i was honest about them even if it sucked to hear them, and she always wanted that and she said to me when i spoke to her im glad your been honest as you never are normally.

 

But still, that does not lift the hurt, i believe in anything physical should be removed that would bring back a memorie, funny thing is i have had this happen before by her the last time, so today i cleaned my room as we was going to watch a film together, and i made it spotless, everything in my bedroom currently is mine and only mine and of course she used it, but it was not her possession, she left her dressing gown here when she left and i just picked it up and hugged it so tight and wished she was in it and i was hugging her, but i got rid of it to save the hurt.

 

At the moment, i have currently deleted Facebook because time-line apparently like's to make break up's 10x worse by not deleting the past post's made by people even after you delete them, so i have made a list of the friends i had and re-added them and deleted her and her family, about 5mins after it all kicked out i knew it was over so i immediately deleted her number and her sisters and anything associated with her within my phone, basically trying to destroy any physical memorie i can of her.

 

But im still sat here crying like a baby, and it's hurting me so bad i know in about 4months i will probably be feeling alot better and she will not be the first thing i think about or the last thing i think about when i wake up or go to sleep like she will be for a while, i have worn the t-shirt but it does not take the sting away any less, and im just so hurt and destroyed by it all, feel like i did the last time and it hurts alot and i just cannot stop crying or wishing things different. I just miss her so much already and it's not even been a day or 12hours yet.

 

Edit, to clarify is "Memorie" spell't like that im not quite sure as it's 2:30AM and i just can't be arsed to spell it or google it or spell check it.

[jj1985]

It is better to delete her of facebook adn twitter and remove all pictures. I didnt do this at first but was told to. No contact doesnt just mean speaking to them, it means deleting them out your life so that nothing you see/hear can trigger an emotion. This has worked for me.

 

Read my post that I have only just posted in the same thread "A way to get over your ex"

 

 

 

This may help, it may not but last week i was in floods of tears and mega heartbroken, i now feel a lot better already.

[Authentic]

Just to update everyone, she has taken it upon herself to try slag me of on facebook, find that quite immature and my phone has been ringing all morning about it, but im not interested i won't rise to her game.

 

still sucks and still she the only thing i can think about