unhappy2000 Posted July 16, 2012 Posted July 16, 2012 Over the weekend I realized that I no longer can remember him very clearly...it's been only 11 weeks but I cannot remember his face without a picture or his voice or the way he called me "baby" or anything! It sounds like that should be good right? But it's not, I cried for two hours straight yesterday because I am not ready to let that all go, letting that go means letting him go I guess and I am not ready yet. I want to remember his voice calling me baby. I want to hear him say how much he loves me. Am I so weird for not wanting to lose that yet?
dasilver Posted July 16, 2012 Posted July 16, 2012 You're not weird at all....We're in the same boat. My ex made a video for me and i can still hear his voice playing in my head.... In the video he sang a song... Elton John "Your Song".... It was the most beautiful sound i'd ever heard. I'm not ready to move on from him... I'm not sad or angry...I'm just not ready....and quite frankly...i don't want to be.
Sportster2005 Posted July 16, 2012 Posted July 16, 2012 Am I so weird for not wanting to lose that yet? I don't think so. Time has a way of allowing us to remember things one day with fondness and delight and not with pain. I have an old shoe box filled with letters from old loves over the years. Sometimes I take them out and read them. And I remember some great moments. But I remember with fondness and feel lucky to have loved them, and be loved by them. You have to let him go. We all have to let go. Our memories though we get to keep. And in time those memories will be pleasant not painful.
rickyspanish Posted July 16, 2012 Posted July 16, 2012 i still have pictures and little things. her voice is still clear in my head... but thats mostly because shes from gemrany and has a strong accent lol. but seriously....i forgot what it felt like to kiss her though....
annie24 Posted July 16, 2012 Posted July 16, 2012 it sounds like you are moving on. that's actually a really good thing.
Heartbroken17 Posted July 16, 2012 Posted July 16, 2012 I actually look froward to the day I can forget those things, as those kind of memories are the ones that torment me most. And actually, while I do remember them - the accuracy is starting to become blurred. Which I am happy about - seriously, if I could wipe any recollection of him (like Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind), I would. But I agree with annie24 - it's a good sign, hopefully the sadness will go and be replaced with hope and empowerment
unhappy2000 Posted July 16, 2012 Author Posted July 16, 2012 I would like to wipe my mind don't get me wrong! But I know I can't....but it's such an odd feeling with him I just feel like grasping onto everything which isn't much that I have left.
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