Out of the blue contact

[playstheblues]

Thanks again for the overwhelming response. So lovely. It's been a tough time since i last posted. I had some bad news about a family member who is ally badly injured in an accident. It's times like this when I miss him the most.

 

I respectfully agree and disagree with different parts of your responses. I'm more ok about the breakup thsn ive been sble to be, i really am. I'm feeling stronger than I have except for the last few days, with the news and all.

 

In the past, I have actually asked him to stop contacting me, but over the last couple of months- the contact has crept back in. It's not frequent, but it does happen every couple of months.

 

I guess I just post on here to 'think out loud' . He's not being fair on me, and I'm not being fair on myself by allowing this but I'm getting better. I'm getting to the point where I'm fed up, at least momentarily so that's a good sign. This has even a long process and it's still going but I'm happy that I'm not as easily affected. Working towards that. I'm not sure how that will happen- if I eventually cut it off- of I'm no longer ready to think about it and him any longer.

 

When I hear about things like this accident, it reminds me how short life actually is. It makes it worse, because i feel like everything's been thrown away, by him. Was it worth it? What a strange and shallow life.