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Afraid to love again... or just not ready.


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I've started hanging out and flirting with different guys now, and I love the fact that I'm single again. I'm focused on finishing school, so I'm okay with being single. I'd love to have someone with me, but I really do like having my own time alone. However, sometimes I think I like being single, because I'm afraid to love.

 

I hung out with an old friend, on July 4th. We went to a baseball game and had so much fun. He did the sweetest thing. I was trying to take a photo of a player, but by the time my camera phone was ready, the player was no longer on the big screen. So, a few minutes or so later, I get a text message on my phone. It was from the guy I was with. He sent me a photo of the player! He knew I wanted it, so he tried to catch him on the big screen That made me fall in love. I loved little gestures like that!

 

Then, we were in the back seat, headed back home. I was so tired, because we drank a little. I wanted him to pull me closer, or I wanted to just lay on him, but I got scared. I scooted closer to the door, and just laid my head on the window. I was very kind and friendly the whole night, but I was standoffish sometimes. Sometimes, I felt I was too cold. I'm so confused. I like him, and sometimes I think he likes me too. But, I feel like we don't like each other enough to even try to start something.

 

I hope I'm not scarred from my past 3 heart break.

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It sound like you're a little scared. Are you holding out for someone? Than again if you don't think you guys have a strong enough connection than maybe it's just a matter of spending some more time together to feel the situation out?

 

He sounds lovely though.

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