maxthecat Posted July 9, 2012 Posted July 9, 2012 tonight i die,no turning back no apologies.my life as I see it left me by the wayside in a clot of chocking dust. A failed business 2 failed marriages one just recent after 18 years, a house forclosed , and friends and family that have seemingly abandoned me. little is left but the pain and that is one thing I cannot keep anymore. the rope is stung the deed will be done and in the morning no one will shed a tear for another fool gone
freiabereinsam Posted July 9, 2012 Posted July 9, 2012 Hi Max the Cat, I have a cat named Max. Do you too? Could you call your parents or siblings and talk to them about how you are feeling?
laura-j Posted July 9, 2012 Posted July 9, 2012 Hi Max, I hope you change your mind. I have two failed marriages too, and it sucks. Trust me way more people than you think will miss you, so please don't do it.
RitaTrue Posted July 9, 2012 Posted July 9, 2012 Hi Max, I hope you change your mind. I have two failed marriages too, and it sucks. Trust me way more people than you think will miss you, so please don't do it. I agree. Please get with some friends, or people you'd feel comfortable talking to. If you're a little bit of a loner, like I am, try a 24/7 crisis hot line, so that you can have an open ear to share your pain: Here are a few numbers: 1 800 273 8255 (National Suicide Hotline: free, confidential, open 24/7) 1 800 784 2433 (National Hopeline Network; free conidential; 24/7) How many people have you talked to about your thoughts?
DreamingLife Posted July 9, 2012 Posted July 9, 2012 Hi Max, I once heard a wise man say in response to a man willing to die: If you lay down right at this moment and with all honesty say to the universe, "I am ready to die now", and you're still alive - there are yet wonders in this world that only you can achieve.
Moontiger Posted July 9, 2012 Posted July 9, 2012 The scary and wonderful thing about life is you never know where it will take you. My mother went through two failed marriages before meeting my dad, was disowned by her father, had to raise my older brother and sister on her own because their bio-father was a dead beat. You get the picture. I hope you change your mind. Life can be painful at times, but there are also many wonderful things about it.
Miss Firecracker Posted July 9, 2012 Posted July 9, 2012 max, Some people in my family have been married 4 times. Some of us just can't get it right for a long time. My own sister is married to her 4th husband and is finally settled. She just had her first grandchild this week and is beside herself with joy! Give it awhile. This too shall pass.
doyathink Posted July 9, 2012 Posted July 9, 2012 I wish you would look at this as the opportunity that it really is. Youre seeing things from a POV as that you lost everything. Why cant this be a new beginning. Live where you want, seek a new interesting job, and find your soul mate. All of this is possible, but not if youre dead. Its a struggle not to wake up some morning and wish you were dead, not gonna lie....Im there some days too. Your life was given to you to live as you choose to live it.
grainsofrice Posted July 9, 2012 Posted July 9, 2012 Hi Max, I was a product of divorced parents that marriage ended with horrible events. What kept me going was knowing that both my divorced parent continue to live their life separately. Please reconsider. I too thought about giving up on life from time to time, but I choose living because no matter how bad my life situation in terms of education, financial, overall well being....I know that being alive at least give me a chance to make changes and take charge. Please reconsider and fight on.
markfromark Posted July 9, 2012 Posted July 9, 2012 One thing I learned a long time ago is to never commit suicide in the evening or night, always wait until the morning. Turns out in the morning life always looks more hopeful.
pippy longstocking Posted July 9, 2012 Posted July 9, 2012 HI max I hope your ok ... yuo have a lot of support on here and others experiences that can help you through yours. have hope because dawn will always break
lovinggirl Posted July 9, 2012 Posted July 9, 2012 I have a wish that someday when someone post like this, ENA can track the location and send someone to do something to prevent it. Hopefully some non-profit organization is willing to fund for the technology and etc? It just breaks my heart to see hopeless person to go. I wonder what awful pain he's been through to have such decision.
pippy longstocking Posted July 9, 2012 Posted July 9, 2012 I have a wish that someday when someone post like this, ENA can track the location and send someone to do something to prevent it. Hopefully some non-profit organization is willing to fund for the technology and etc? It just breaks my heart to see hopeless person to go. I wonder what awful pain he's been through to have such decision. I know , and when people don't ever come back on ..well you know , I always wonder to myself
EQIQ Posted July 12, 2012 Posted July 12, 2012 Maxthecat - where are you???? He probably didn't kill himself. And if he didn't why would he post here and "make a fool out of himself". I mean off course, it is silly to think like that, because he would be a true fool if he indeed did commit suicide, and would be great if he goes for help. If he did kill himself.. then for obvious reasons he won't post here anymore. So bottom line, I doubt he will post here again. Unless he wants to prove me wrong. I have a wish that someday when someone post like this, ENA can track the location and send someone to do something to prevent it. Hopefully some non-profit organization is willing to fund for the technology and etc? It just breaks my heart to see hopeless person to go. I wonder what awful pain he's been through to have such decision. That would be a major intrusion of privacy that I believe is not only illegal/unconstitutional, but would drive many posters away from ENA. The whole point of the site is to be anonymous and discuss personal life problems that you would rather have people not know about.
tiredofvampires Posted July 14, 2012 Posted July 14, 2012 He probably didn't kill himself. And if he didn't why would he post here and "make a fool out of himself". Posting in a suicide forum when you're feeling absolutely hopeless is not "making a fool out of yourself." It's what everyone feeling like that should do -- reach out, ask others to hear your cry, so they might say something to help you see some reason to stay. Killing yourself is what's foolish. Beyond foolish. That's not a very productive thing to say, EQ. Maxthecat, I saw that even though you only have posted once here in this forum, that you had one other thread, about your marriage breaking up. I'm so sorry about that -- it's utterly devastating. Please know that as long as you have a body, you have a chance at something new. You said in that thread that you were in excellent health. Your body is a faithful servant...treat it with love for being there for you, don't hurt it. It wants to go into the future with you. You always have YOU. One thing I've learned -- after one loss on top of another -- is that if you just hang in long enough to get past another day, and another...things start to shift without you even being aware of it at first. Nothing ever stays the way it is -- and just as unforeseen bad things can always come along, it's JUST as likely for unforeseen good things to come along. Life is absolutely the magician, pulling out one surprise after another. Sometimes you have to have everything broken to learn how to fix anything. But you don't have to worry about knowing how to fix it yet. You just have to wake up and put one foot in front of the other, until you start to realize things look a little different than they do now. If you've loved before, you can love again. If you've been happy before, you can be happy again. The search must go on, but these capabilities lie dormant in you, waiting to have another chance. I hope you'll come back here and tell us you're alright. xx
AppleBell Posted July 17, 2012 Posted July 17, 2012 If you have the courage to suicide, why dont take little bit more to live on and face life. Please live on =)
F63 Posted July 25, 2012 Posted July 25, 2012 If you have the courage to suicide, why dont take little bit more to live on and face life. Please live on =)Sorry, I just wanted to say that it is not courageous to commit suicide. It is cowardly and selfish.
grainsofrice Posted August 20, 2012 Posted August 20, 2012 Hey Max, Please let us know if you are ok. I hope all is well.
peaceOfmind78 Posted August 27, 2012 Posted August 27, 2012 I think suicide is neither courageous, cowardly nor selfish because it is a mental illness (as most would say), like other terminal illnesses. Most of the time, nothing could stop severe mentally ill folks from taking their own lives. It's an illness, just like cancer it has several stages. The "pain" that they feel is beyond our capacity. Just the way I see it...at this point. (Hope Max is OK)
joe1112 Posted September 1, 2012 Posted September 1, 2012 I know how u feel, i too lost everything i ever loved n i too will b dead soon.
nekoxchaos Posted September 2, 2012 Posted September 2, 2012 Everyone dies but to do so in your own hands isn't fair ...... You didnt loose everything because you still have yourself I tried killing myself at the age of 12 by hanging ... I was terribly unhappy ... I'm 26 now and feeling a lot better I would never imagine id be thins strong
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