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15 hours ago, itsallgrand said:

I guess I just want those who have made me feel seen, to know how much it has meant to me. I'm grateful for you. 

Right back at you, itsallgrand. 

Wishing you all the best, always. 

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Besides working on my business, I've just been living super simply. And it's helping a lot. Lots of exercise - I bought myself my first new bicycle as an adult! - and expanding my garden. I bought myself a CSA box for my birthday coming up, so between that and my garden the idea is hopefully will be able to cover produce and some other food over summer and fall without relying on the grocery stores. The idea is to wean off big grocery and some other over time, and I think it's doable for the most part. 

I barely watch tv anymore, and have reduced my screen time to mostly work now. I've lost the few extra pounds I was carrying around. 

I'm just trying to focus on the good things, and what I can control. There's so much out of my control, it has played a toll on my mental health. But I think I'm on the right track again. 

For spiritual needs, nature and connection to bigger things is my place. It's important, especially with how easy it is to become myopic right now. 

Love you all. Stay safe and thinking of you fine people. 

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I'm turning 42, which means I am now the same age as my dad was when he died. It's an odd feeling. I've been thinking of him lots. He had a wife, a 14 year old and a 12 year old at this age. He was going to college, and I was SO proud of him. He was the person I was closest to in the whole world. I felt so lucky, having a dad that was involved in my life. Most of my friends didn't have that, they rarely saw their fathers as their families were rather old school in the way of "mom takes care of kids, dad works crazy hours farming and you don't bother him when he's relaxing". My dad wasn't a farmer, and wasn't planted to a piece of land in that way. Also, our family was egalitarian, there wasn't adherence to a set of gender or age roles like we were surrounded by. My dad liked to roam, he loved adventure. I'd go as far to say that he was a bit of an adrenaline junkie. His best friend was a bush pilot up north, and that was like the coolest thing ever to me as a kid. Dad worked mostly in labour jobs until his mid 30s. He would go away for weeks sometimes to work in camps, getting way up high repairing and building bridges and other structures. Later, he was hauling sugar beets in Canada and the states. Sometimes he'd take one of us with, for shorter trips, and I loved it lol. Besides that, he'd often take us on mini trips. Either hop in the car or the motorcycle, and just go. I absolutely loved those trips. We never knew either what vehicle we might have, as he'd be swapping out different cars and bikes regularly. We had a shimmering gold glitter beast of a car at one point. Ha. Also, my riding helmet was glittered, but of course! 

Dad was a bit eccentric, and a talented artist. We painted murals on our walls as a family. We created snow sculptures. We made wicked papier mache heads for Halloween. We always had art projects on the go. 

And he was so supportive of me, no matter what. He was a talker, a friend to anyone who might want one, no matter background or what people may think. 

I see the older guys on their fancy cruiser bikes, going for coffee cruises now instead of bar runs, and I think of dad. He'd be there. He'd be cruising around, chatting everyone up, in his retirement years. And if he were alive, we would be doing those cute father daughter bike rides for dad fundraisers, all the way. 

I miss him. 

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48 minutes ago, itsallgrand said:

I'm turning 42, which means I am now the same age as my dad was when he died. It's an odd feeling. I've been thinking of him lots. He had a wife, a 14 year old and a 12 year old at this age. He was going to college, and I was SO proud of him. He was the person I was closest to in the whole world. I felt so lucky, having a dad that was involved in my life. Most of my friends didn't have that, they rarely saw their fathers as their families were rather old school in the way of "mom takes care of kids, dad works crazy hours farming and you don't bother him when he's relaxing". My dad wasn't a farmer, and wasn't planted to a piece of land in that way. Also, our family was egalitarian, there wasn't adherence to a set of gender or age roles like we were surrounded by. My dad liked to roam, he loved adventure. I'd go as far to say that he was a bit of an adrenaline junkie. His best friend was a bush pilot up north, and that was like the coolest thing ever to me as a kid. Dad worked mostly in labour jobs until his mid 30s. He would go away for weeks sometimes to work in camps, getting way up high repairing and building bridges and other structures. Later, he was hauling sugar beets in Canada and the states. Sometimes he'd take one of us with, for shorter trips, and I loved it lol. Besides that, he'd often take us on mini trips. Either hop in the car or the motorcycle, and just go. I absolutely loved those trips. We never knew either what vehicle we might have, as he'd be swapping out different cars and bikes regularly. We had a shimmering gold glitter beast of a car at one point. Ha. Also, my riding helmet was glittered, but of course! 

Dad was a bit eccentric, and a talented artist. We painted murals on our walls as a family. We created snow sculptures. We made wicked papier mache heads for Halloween. We always had art projects on the go. 

And he was so supportive of me, no matter what. He was a talker, a friend to anyone who might want one, no matter background or what people may think. 

I see the older guys on their fancy cruiser bikes, going for coffee cruises now instead of bar runs, and I think of dad. He'd be there. He'd be cruising around, chatting everyone up, in his retirement years. And if he were alive, we would be doing those cute father daughter bike rides for dad fundraisers, all the way. 

I miss him. 

That is beautiful ❤️ I love beautiful relationships. 

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Yesterday, the SO and I were disagreeing about something and it got a little bit heated. Then he says "Cite your sources!" and I started laughing and next thing you know, we are belly laughing. It's become a sort of shorthand now for diffusing a disagreement when it gets a bit too hot, as our most epic argument we've had in this relationship devolved into a total farce of us frantically pulling up sources to prove our positions and "cite your source!!" being repeated by both us. 

The rare geeky argument aside, I've never been with someone I've worked so well with as him. We really do make a great team, and I'm feeling grateful today. We have managed to get through this past year, both of us home and can barely go anywhere, and our relationship is stronger. 

 

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17 minutes ago, itsallgrand said:

Yesterday, the SO and I were disagreeing about something and it got a little bit heated. Then he says "Cite your sources!" and I started laughing and next thing you know, we are belly laughing. It's become a sort of shorthand now for diffusing a disagreement when it gets a bit too hot, as our most epic argument we've had in this relationship devolved into a total farce of us frantically pulling up sources to prove our positions and "cite your source!!" being repeated by both us. 

The rare geeky argument aside, I've never been with someone I've worked so well with as him. We really do make a great team, and I'm feeling grateful today. We have managed to get through this past year, both of us home and can barely go anywhere, and our relationship is stronger. 

 

Hahaha we have had a few disagreements too, not as polite as yours.😣 But we know it is not meant and we apologize and move on. I just see this as practice for retirement . It is coming up quick. 5 years for me and 8 for hubby. 
 

Getting through the hard times proves a relationship’s worth and strength. The easy times are, well, easy, the test is the hard times. 

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1 hour ago, itsallgrand said:

We have managed to get through this past year, both of us home and can barely go anywhere, and our relationship is stronger. 

I think the pandemic made or broke a lot of relationships.  If a couple can survive being together under the worst circumstances, make a happy, peaceful ( even forced under lock down LOL) home together in the midst of them, they are set!

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Holy crow. We are opening up a wee bit in our province and suddenly everyone wants to spend money. I'm not complaining, but wow, people are just itching lol. Looks like I won't be camping this weekend since I'd be a fool to turn down good business. Fresh coffee on!! 

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I feel bad for kids that are growing up with their every fart documented in photos on social media by their parents. Something that came up on my feed really bugged me today, so I'll just get my annoyance out here. 

The person posts photos of her kids constantly. The eldest is now a teenager, and in all the photos today he was flipping the bird and scowling. She posted them anyways, even though he clearly was not up for one of moms photo sessions. Here's the real poop part though... She posted selfies he had taken of himself that were embarrassing and obviously meant to be private for himself, and wrote "posting X's selfies as pay back!! for flipping me off when I'm taking pictures 😜😂". 

This is a real dink move, right? I'm not crazy to think this is way out of line to do this to someone, social media vengeance or something? 

This same person has her kids pose with signs and uses them for photos for her cause du jour. I'll make clear, I'm not knocking people who believe in something. But for her, she's putting them on and off like it's a hip accessory, and dragging her kids into. 

I just know I would have done horribly if my mom was like that, I'd be flipping her off too. Like let him just figure out who he is seperate from you. 

Time to delete contact lol. 

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3 hours ago, itsallgrand said:

I feel bad for kids that are growing up with their every fart documented in photos on social media by their parents. Something that came up on my feed really bugged me today, so I'll just get my annoyance out here. 

The person posts photos of her kids constantly. The eldest is now a teenager, and in all the photos today he was flipping the bird and scowling. She posted them anyways, even though he clearly was not up for one of moms photo sessions. Here's the real poop part though... She posted selfies he had taken of himself that were embarrassing and obviously meant to be private for himself, and wrote "posting X's selfies as pay back!! for flipping me off when I'm taking pictures 😜😂". 

This is a real dink move, right? I'm not crazy to think this is way out of line to do this to someone, social media vengeance or something? 

This same person has her kids pose with signs and uses them for photos for her cause du jour. I'll make clear, I'm not knocking people who believe in something. But for her, she's putting them on and off like it's a hip accessory, and dragging her kids into. 

I just know I would have done horribly if my mom was like that, I'd be flipping her off too. Like let him just figure out who he is seperate from you. 

Time to delete contact lol. 

People like that are butts . It is one thing to have the occasional nice pic of your kid but that is on a whole other level. 

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