engraved2008 Posted July 7, 2012 Posted July 7, 2012 this saturday is just bad.....i m at work and last night when i layed in bad i closed my eyes and just saw his face smiling and hugging me.i was thinking how beautiful his eyes are shaped....well that did not bring much good.woke up in the morning and creid a bit and now i feell like i heave something heavy inside me ( the pain of rejection and wanting a reacction from him ) Good news is that yes,he allways talks to me ,or if i call he will most likely respond and will chat for few minutes.......i know he contqacts me when i do nto talk to him for a while..... I miss him so bad......but i do not want to be the one chasing again for him.I want him to contact me ( which he ususally does ) I miss how he was texting me and calling me and now even he cares ,no longer feells those strong feellings ( LDR ).......i decided to see him in August even knowing how he feells.he has blamed me for getting married after he broke up with me.now im separated.however this was just an excuse.he said he loved me,but i think he was just infatuated.I have treid to move on ,but i feel that the love will be in my heart forever.... If its true love will stay strong beyond romantically and sexuall feelings.....it will be there for good and bad.so he gave up when he no longer felt the butterflies,the excitment..... I have a bad day.
Lambert Posted July 7, 2012 Posted July 7, 2012 Engraved, I am sorry you are having a bad day.... I know those dreams can betray us when we wake. Hang in there. I am not aware of your story, but from it sounds this rs ended a while ago and you were married and now separated. Could it be that you are just transferring some of the hurt from your separation to the longing for this guy? Try to be kind to yourself. I think it's trying time for you-- being separated and all, that a lot of emotions to deal with and go through. Hope this helps in some way. Like I said, not knowing the story I am not sure of the things to say. But I support self-love and kindness in all situations.
engraved2008 Posted July 7, 2012 Author Posted July 7, 2012 Engraved, I am sorry you are having a bad day.... I know those dreams can betray us when we wake. Hang in there. I am not aware of your story, but from it sounds this rs ended a while ago and you were married and now separated. Could it be that you are just transferring some of the hurt from your separation to the longing for this guy? Try to be kind to yourself. I think it's trying time for you-- being separated and all, that a lot of emotions to deal with and go through. Hope this helps in some way. Like I said, not knowing the story I am not sure of the things to say. But I support self-love and kindness in all situations. thank u.....yes it ended in 2009 ( actually a break from 09 becamse a break up )......but we kept seeing each other once or twice a year,and kept on talking on regular bases ....and most of circumstances he has reached me and broke NC saying he misses me,he cares.....thing is : he kept us as a secret and i feell like i was always the other women ,and had many other women around.
chickydoodle Posted July 7, 2012 Posted July 7, 2012 To get thru' a bad patch , I would google all the quotes about courage, acceptance, letting go. I would pick my favourites and use them like a mantra. Altho' I hated leaving the house, I found that anytime I did get out- observed life still going on around me; did a bit of retail therpay ( op shopping )...It helped me feel better. Hope something really nice happens for you soon. ( Hugs)
engraved2008 Posted July 7, 2012 Author Posted July 7, 2012 i have asked him if he has a girlfriend or is in a relationship few days a go....He responded.Why should i be in a relationship if im not in a relationship with u .u was great to me.i just dont one to be in one period.....thats what he said.....maybe he is lying..maybe not
chickydoodle Posted July 7, 2012 Posted July 7, 2012 There is not much you can do if he isnt going to chase up a rship with you - for whatever reason. I would believe him if he says he doesnt want one and if he did it would be with you. The timing for you two , seems to be way off. Maybe one day you will be together but for now you must learn to live with the situation and stay strong. Knowing he loves you should be a comfort at least.
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