Everything feels so bland and boring to me... Am I sick??

[JoeCool]

I don't know what to do anymore about myself and I feel frustrated. I feel like I should genuinely be happy in my life but for some reason I still feel extreme feelings of loneliness and boredom. A lot of great things have transpired in the past few months in my life, I got a new job that's full time and which consists of most of my days, I got a new car, a new apartment and I've been able to make new friends with some people at my job. At first I felt thrilled but shortly after the excitement died down I went back to feeling depressive again.Before I got the job,car etc I felt somewhat depressed but even with all of those things... I just went back to feeling ugh..

 

 

I've already lost interest in my new job already which I've only been working a few months. I'm finding my job very dreadful, I've called out of work lots of times and even find myself taking extensive breaks just because I just don't feel up to doing the work. I know what I'm doing is risky but I almost have a don't care type of feeling about losing my job which sounds crazy but I don't know. I feel quite bored with my life, my job takes up most of my time and I only have 2 off days and my off days consists of cleaning up around the apartment or doing things I have to make up for when I was at work. My social life is kind of bland, I have friends but I honestly feel like none of them are there for me to a certain extent. I also don't feel a connection with anyone I come into contact with. I feel bored with people and I feel like no one really understands me.

 

I feel the most lonely at night and the anxiety can be overwhelming sometimes. I felt so lonely on one of my off nights that I went out for a night on the town by myself to a bar for a couple of drinks. I got drunk and felt good for awhile.. I loosened up danced and met people but after I got home I realized that I made a fool of myself and that everyone was laughing at me and not with me which I felt horribly embarrassed about... I feel like I should be happy, I have a great job, a car and a great life but fors some reason I just don't feel like it's enough... I don't know why... I'm confused.

[perplexing]

You seem to be perceiving things in a negative way, and it sounds like you aren't allowing any hope for things to start feeling better (they will!) If you've tried to be more positive on your own and haven't had any success, I'd definitely recommend seeing a therapist. By talking with a therapist or a psychologist, you can understand why you are feeling this way, and from there learn strategies and techniques to combat those negative feelings. Instead of viewing yourself as being sick, view the opportunity to speak with a therapist as a positive way to change your life for the better. You have nothing to lose by doing this and everything to gain!