I had a friend push me away a while ago. I would like to reconnect.

[blueberrysky3]

When we started high school four years ago we slowly started drifting apart. We were so close that few people outside of our close circle and teachers didn't know which was which.

I became very emotional and I would have many outbursts when I noticed she didn't talk to me much anymore.

April of sophomore year I asked her what I could do to repair our friendship and she basically came out to me. She said she was convinced I was a huge homophobe and that I would never accept someone why identified as GBLT. This couldn't be further from the truth. I told her it didn't matter to me and we left it at that.

I tried talking to her a while later and in trying to explain why I've been so emotional, I told her it made me sad when I feel like she's ignoring me because we were so close. She got mad and told me she didn't want me around, saying that and many other things I've done are outright manipulation.

This was about the last conversation we actually had.

I didn't find out until the next year that there was a Gay Straight Alliance at our school, and I mad it my absolute priority to become involved in hopes that she would understand that I am absolutely not against her. That was our junior year. The last exchange we had was talking about the odd meetings of our GSA in the last few weeks of the school year. It was pretty friendly without being friends.

I want to reach out to her, but I don't know what I would even say. I don't want to come off as creepy. She was my absolute best friend.