Break Up + Family Issue = Too Much Stress/Negative Emotions

[cc524]

I don't know if this is the right section. But I feel very very unhappy these days. My ex and I broke up a month ago. I was beginning to heal after 2 weeks, while trying to maintain a somewhat distant but friendly relationship with him.

 

Then this week, something happened in the family. The police even came to take me to the station to ask me for info. When I was released, I tried calling my family, but no one picked up. I assumed that they were in for questioning too, so I called my ex to pick me up because I really trust him and the only other person I trust was working. That is how he came back into my life.

 

After that, because of the trouble with the law, there is nothing at home. What I mean is the hydro is cut, so is the gas. That means no internet, no tv, no power, no cooking, nothing. I had been trying to restore them but after calling many many agencies and service providers, there's still nothing. I can't go into all the details, but someone in my family is getting charged, and might go to jail. Our home might be taken away. Right now all I'm doing is trying to look for work, so that we at least have some money. The situation at home is too depressing for me to handle, I had never expected it. I am getting hyper-sensitive about noises too. Loud and sudden banging scares me. I feel like I'm going to die early from all the stress. I am in bed all the time, I have no energy or desire to do anything.

 

My family forbade me to tell anyone about this situation, but I need the emotional support from my friends, so I told my ex the whole story and asked him to keep it a secret. This was when we started doing what we used to do together: watching tv, cuddling, making out, having sex..... We understand that we still have feelings for each other, but we just won't work out. He lets me keep his spare keys so that I can go to his place and use the internet and charge my phone. At this point, I would like to get back together with him, not because I know we can be good together, but because I'm just so vulnerable right now and depressed. Anyways he told me yesterday that he is actually "seeing someone" right now; a girl he had a crush on before we started dating (I actually remember him telling me about her when we were still just friends.) I feel betrayed that he is moving on and seeing someone already when we just broke up for a month. But I understand that we broke up and what he does with his life is none of my business. Today, we still had sex and stuff, we both know it's wrong since he's seeing someone but I don't want our intimacy to stop, not now when I have so much s**t going on in my life. He told me that he will let me come by his place for as long as my house's power is out (which seems like is a long long time).

 

I hope both the family situation and the thing with my ex will just resolve themselves. I just wanna be gone from here.

[martyfarty]

i can understand what you are going through.

this year i've faced this:

found out my mom has MS

grandma dies

friend dies

sold my car to buy a house for us (stupid ex and i), but canceled it because of her bull * * * *

grandpa went to the hospital

almost lost my complete family in a car accident in cali ( mom went to the hospital to get stitched up)--almost fell off the mountain.

got a small business to run

The Witch strings me along for 8 months, while * * * * ing some other dude.

etc....

 

it gets better. stay strong . =)

[DN]

I am sorry that your life has got so awful - but if he dumps this new girl to be with you then you had better not dump him when your situation gets better.

[Ayanokōji]

I think it was a mistake telling you EX after you two broke up.

 

But just remember these words of comfort.

 

The worse your life becomes the more you should realize that once you've hit rock bottom, the only way left to go is up =).