LSgirl Posted February 21, 2012 Share Posted February 21, 2012 My bf of over a year is kind of a hippie, before we met he even used to have dreads down to his waist but cut it off. He's a very generous person, to strangers, friends, and me. I would consider him a humanitarian, always trying to help people and he's extremely loyal and never judgmental. In his past he's done a lot of things/traveling, very experimental with drugs (in his his teens), but the only thing he does now is pot which I don't mind even though I'm not a smoker myself. However, when he dropped me off at Saturday night around midnight, I didn't hear from him the next day. I figured he was busy and didn't hear his phone ring, then my friend who is dating his roommate texted me around 10pm saying my bf never came home and I told him I hadn't heard back from him either. I got worried a bit especially because he rides fast on his motorcycle and maybe thought he got into an accident. I finally fell asleep and woke up around 1:30am this morning and decided to call him again. He picked up and was fine, he said he met up with his guy friend (a local rock/folk guitarist) that he drove 45 min away to hang out with and some other people that hung out at this beach, did mushrooms and he said he had an awesome time. He said he felt really good again and got in touch with his spiritual side and felt he needed this. He loves camping and camped for 2 nights total, all while not telling anyone where he was. So when he had finally answered the phone I broke down crying saying that I was worried but convinced myself he was alright. I told him I was happy to know he was fine but I didn't know whether to be angry or not because nobody had heard from him and it seemed a bit selfish. He said that I had no need to ever worry about him and he had been wanting to do something like this for awhile and it sounded like it was one of the best days he's ever had or something. He said he would call me again when he got back into town. He called me this afternoon and told me he got back safely and was on his way to get a smoothie and asked me how my day at work was. I didn't say much, I couldn't decipher if I was angry or sad or even had a reason to feel upset. He said his roommate had filed a missing persons report with the cops and I didn't say anything. I told him I would talk to him later and we hung up. I didn't even feel like talking to him so I kept the conversation short and ended it. Now to the part where I feel confused, should I be upset? Part of me even feels jealous that he had so much fun with these strangers and that I would never do anything like this. I hate camping and not really an outdoorsy person in general, and the fact that he hadn't told me where he was, worrying me and his friends, then telling me how much fun he had just made me both sad and angry. So should I just let this go? I know he meant no harm and I feel like this isnt even out of character of him, he's a very spontaneous and relaxed person, but why do I feel this way? Link to comment
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