rogersj1 Posted February 14, 2012 Share Posted February 14, 2012 A diary i wrote today. We broke up 3 months ago because i was controlling. It all started when She wanted to move in with 2 guys we knew from college who live near her job and i refused. Ever since it has been a trainwreck of a break up. As bad as they come. I called her names, she met someone else, and is now dating him. They started dating a month after our BU. Dear diary, We werent happy. We had a lot of problems. We were never sure about each other! She always had doubts. She loved me, but was too young to commit. We were too young, we didnt get along. She always complained and never seemed satisfied. We were miserable together, we had alot of problems, never communicated Effectively, she didnt feel welcome in my house because you know they hated her. She was too much of a partier. Liked to go out and forget about me, because honestly i was controlling. I acted like her mother most of the time. Asked who she was with, where she is. I didnt trust her, she didnt trust me. It was never gonna work out, i didnt even want to marry her. How could i? I was never happy with her, i was just comfortable. Who are u kidding? I wasnt in love. We argued and fought 24/7. We werent together because we were in love. WE WERE TOGETHER BECAUSE WE WERE AFRAID OF BREAKING UP. Fear of the unknown. Face it. It is as over as they come. There is more hope of winning the lottery than getting back. It simply will never happen. Get real and move on with your life. It is clear as day she has. You dont love her. You have no feelings for her. You arent attracted to her. All those things u said were what u think of her. All those hurtful things u said to her about how unattractive she is are your true thoughts. Then why be with her? She has the right to choose, and try to find someone who makes her happy, i wasnt that person. Why keep her around? To make her miserable. She seems she has found someone who makes her happy, i want her to be happy. She is my first relationship, why dont u find someone who wont keep u up at night crying over them? * If you were at a buffet, would u eat * rice the whole time? Never try anything else? Just rice, for the rest of ur life. It is time to try the pasta. Even the rice is telling you to move on. The rice is done with you. We let arguments get in between us, and people got in between us. The relationship is ruined. There is no repair. She has no intention to getting back and being miserable again, and neither do i. Her family didnt like me, we are culturally different. I am not the one. She isnt loyal. She NEVER was. Link to comment
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