dbhustla Posted February 12, 2012 Share Posted February 12, 2012 latley the past 3-4 days its like i have this numb feeling in my heart. i remember a week ago and for the past 4 months it was like walking around with a dager in my heart and i would cry, but that feeling is gone. I am wondering is it me finally accepting the BU and healed? Or is it part of the healing process to feel NUMB? In the recent days she hasnt been on my mind as much, instead of every few minutes now im going hours before i start thinking about her. And the thing is even a wk ago when she texted me i was anxious and heart was racing, but when sh texted me today ( about crediat card money owed) i didnt get sappy and she asked how was i and said good im doing real good im over it now and accept the situation. Dont know why i said that to her but thats what i started to text back. I know im not 100% over it by anymeans but my heart as of now doesnt hurt its just numb. I donnt wanna speak to fast and jinx myself but i know im feeling 100% percent better then i was even 5 days ago... i have been takling to an old flame that takes my mind of things alot too. Oh and when i asked her how she was doing she said" just tired" and "alot of things going on" i asked if she was happy and her reply was "thats the goal" i replied to have goals is one thing but are you happy?? she didnt respond to that answer and then said "having a hard time with change" (she told me a almost 2 wks ago she had to let me go for someone new) then she told me to listen to a song by coldplay the scientist.... hmmmm wonder if things arent going as expected for her?? but either way im feeling good and im not a emotional wreck and i feel the damage has been done and she has gotten what she asked for and thats for me to move on... or atleast starting to.. Link to comment
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