WSC12 Posted February 11, 2012 Share Posted February 11, 2012 For the last four years I have been involved with a group of people whos lifestyle was ultimately detrimental to my wellbeing. From the age of 19 til 22 I was regularly partying-drinking heavily, taking drugs, violence was commonplace, etc etc alll the bad things. Achieving nothing. I had enough last summer and broke free. I cut all contact with anyone I had met in that time, including the boyfriend who introduced me to it all. I got into college and Im hoping to study abroad if i make the cut. Essentially Ive turned my life around in that sense. Only problem is, I am devastatingly alone. I adamantly refuse to drink alcohol or take drugs anymore, and where I am location wise, and the age Im at (early 20's), it seems thats the only way people will 'come together'. I have tried to have a romantic relationship with someone, but issues arose that reminded me of infidelity from that nasty previous relationship and I freaked out and had to go. Im working so hard to get into the career Ive chose, but I wanna be able to share with people, and learn from people. I wanna be able to do it right, not just with alcohol. My views on which, albeit extreme, I believe are necessary at this stage in my life, to keep me away from those people and that clique. I cant figure out why its so hard to get a connection with people without a substance involved? I dont want to jeopardise my integrity on this matter, its very important to me. Link to comment
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