robert7x Posted November 27, 2011 Share Posted November 27, 2011 Last night I went out with friends after couple of months not going out... I just wasn't into it or did I feel like being in the whole club scene. Last time I saw ex was 4 months ago... So we went to this club... And here she comes... She came said hi to my friend, then looked at me expecting a hug but I just shook her hand and said hi.... The girl is dressed * * * * ty.. It just looks like she wants attention... I mean i just felt like "what a hell are you doing." I can notice throughout the night she was looking at my direction a lot... After a while I just felt like throwing up... The anxiety kicked in... So I decided to leave. The whole night she was maybe 2 feet behind me... On my way out I de eider to tell her "bye" at least. Me: it was nice seeing you tonight. I'm gonna go. Her: whatever, at least next time you can act like you're happy to see me. Me: (at this point I looked at her neckless as it was something weird) Her: and don't go looking at my boobs like that, it's too late. I didn't feel like saying anything and stooping to her level as she was looking for argument like our whole relationship has been. However, those words and those couple of moments are being run in constat reply motion in my head. The way I see that girl now... I mean, nothing going for her... She just has her semi-looks... No brain, no future... Only partying. Doing shots and acting like a 15year old girl... I loved that girl, I still probably do... But I know that there is no future with her... At least not the life I want. I'm just not into whole glamour, fashion, clubbing scene. Yet, this set me back up. I feel the guilt of failed relationship... The words she said... Maybe I should have talked to her... Which... Who knows might have bring us closer... But that would only be great for that time... The reality would still be different. Here it is Sunday, and I'm just not feeling well at all... I don't know what's going on with me. Thanks for reading. Link to comment
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