notimeman Posted November 8, 2011 Share Posted November 8, 2011 For more information, my original post is here. Tomorrow will be the day that a month has passed since our breakup. If you read my original post you'd know that for all intents and purposes I've successfully the steps necessary to move on. I haven't begged or pleaded, I've been civil and understanding, and I've only broken contact a week after the breakup to ask her our for coffee. I've done well for myself and there were moments that I felt like I could get through this, but I've hit the bottom again. She hasn't once attempted to contact me (likely because her friend keeps her from doing so) but I wonder if she truly cares so little of me that she's just moved on, or perhaps if she's waiting for me to attempt contact myself. I feel empty. She's the woman I gave my virginity to, the woman I felt that was special enough to give something society considers so valuable and I don't regret it. I just feel like with every day she's slipping further and further away from me. I defriended her on facebook after she didn't respond to my first and only contact and now I feel like I've made a mistake. Did I push her away? Does she feel like I don't want her? For that first week we both had the pictures of each other together, still displayed there like important plaques of our situation. I've been struggling with sending her a message: Hey, K. Its already been a month since we've ended our relationship and your lack of contact has displayed to me an unwillingness to reconcile. I just wanted to send you this message to let you know that I haven't been striding along like nothing has happened. Its been tough. I never want you to think that you were ever a passing thought. I truly loved you, and still do, and losing what we had has come as one of the hardest blows I've ever come to face. I've been working hard on myself. I have a job now and I'm doing well in school. I'm learning to be happy with me as the individual. It hurts me to think of all the trouble I've caused for you, but I hope you're also thinking about all the good times we've had. We had a chemistry that was miraculous. As long as we were together, we always found a way to make each other happy. I miss you, K, and will always consider you my #1. P.S: I've read through the entire series. With every page drawn I'd always hear "'arry Potter. 'arry Potter." in my head (in your voice, of course). Much love, A. Help me get through this fellow members...I'm very tired of crying. Link to comment
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