BrokenM4n Posted October 27, 2011 Share Posted October 27, 2011 I've attempted to write this post about 5 times over the last 2 weeks - I plot it in my head and then answer my own question.. but here goes.. Lots of stuff has been said and done since my wife told me she had fallen out of love with me.. nearly 7 months ago. There have been massive ups and downs and I’m still at home despite having two clear dates to leave the family home. Whist she may not have said "Dont Go" she has certainly said, "let try this" which is more than enough to make me stay. I have a mind-set of wanting to do everything and anything to put this right before separating...especially as this is more my fault than hers (I think...friends and family tell me differently). Anyhow.. all of our differences have been addressed, neither of us repeat the mistakes that caused the tension and troubles of the past...although she still has a her moments. It was only last week that she said I’m everything she ever wanted... I still love her as much as i ever have but i just cannot reignite that spark. It's like she had enough, put up a barrier and is completely incapable of lowering it...despite telling me that it's what she ultimately wants. Reading this, you will have to take my word for it that I’m sure there are other problems in her life are stopping her and they're are blamed on me and the problems in our relationship i.e. i think she'd feel the same about these things if things were still good between us (her career - of lack off for example). so, getting to the point... I miss her, love her, love living in my home with my kids but this empty loveless relationship is just so hard to deal with. She was my best mate…things went wrong…we’ve both addressed our differences and i think it's reached the stage where i want to be wanted…instead she tells me she feels completely numb, she can’t decide either way. ...and here we reach the end of this and i guess i know the answer...if she does need me in her life then i suppose i have to remove myself from it for her to see that. Just feels so wrong to put the kids through such a traumatic time if it’s not necessary. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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