SadPumpkin Posted October 27, 2011 Share Posted October 27, 2011 I am not in a great place right now. Don't get me wrong. I'm not the type of person to do anything rash... But I no longer know what to feel ever since he cheated... I just feel sick to my stomach. No kid should feel this way or have to deal with this. Please, I need some help... My Dad was the greatest person in my life. He was the kind of person I wanted to grow up to be. The ultimate role model: kind, caring, respectful, smart. I'm only 17 and he and my Mum and brother are my everything. The past months (around Jan and Feb), things were not going so well. I knew my Mum and Dad were having problems (my bedroom is right next to theirs) but it wasn't anything major. All of a sudden, everything cleared up. No more arguing. No more fights. They were doing things together again like going to the beach. We were a happy family again.Then they decided to drop a bombshell on my brother and myself: My Dad cheated. Apparently it went on for only a few weeks with some young girl from his work. She's 22 and gorgeous. 5 YEARS OLDER THAN ME! YUCK! They slept together and texted back and forth. Then my Mum found out and apparently ever since then my Dad has been the perfect husband. He showed so much remorse that my Mum was willing to work on their relationship. He now tries to spend every moment with her. Even when he's at work he calls her nearly every 2nd hour. He also put a tracking app on his phone. He's trying to make up for things, I can see it. But why do I still feel so upset? I've cried most night ever since I found out 2 months ago. My Dad cries about what he did to our family because we were all so close. I know my Mum has always had a VERY VERY suspicious nature, she was always sus before this and I KNOW he hadn't done anything like this before (she said this was the first time he'd done this). But he said he felt so alone and that she didn't love him, then goes on to say that it was no excuse for him to behave the way he did. I'm always crying. I feel so betrayed by him. So much upset and pain it physically hurts. I try to stay strong for my younger brother but when I'm alone I'm a mess. At times I am happy being a family, then a sudden wave rushes over me and I rememebr what he did and all I want to do is punch him and make him hurt the way he made us all hurt. My Dad says I have every right to hit him. I know I don't. Then there's my Mum. Most of the time I hug and comfort her. I'm trying to support her because she doesn't have anyone she can lean on. But then I feel angry with her that she pushed him away the way she did. Throughout my childhood, she rarely showed affection towards him when he was always loving towards her. She hardly ever got him gifts or wrote him thoughtful notes the way he wrote for her. She would always question his whereabouts. I think they loved each other. But weren't IN love with each other (if you get what I mean). Either way these emotions, these changing horrible emotions are now affecting my life. I find it hard to concentrate and I'm kind of jumpy, very restless. I go through emotion after emotion and I can't take it anymore. I'm on a rollercoaster and I feel there is no one I can talk to or vent to. Can someone please help me? I feel so alone... Are these feelings normal? Am I being unreasonable dealing with this situation this way? Can anyone tell me what their emotional experiences were when they found out when one of their parents cheated? I just need someone. Link to comment
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