backatone Posted October 18, 2011 Share Posted October 18, 2011 This is my 2 month check-in. I've had some good things happen to me lately. Biggest one was a promotion I had been trying to get for abut 3 years. Again, didn't really feel like it mattered as much as it should have without her. I still believe I was progressively losing my self-confidence while trying to get this promotion at work and showing her how frustrated I was and how I was starting to doubt myself. Thursday will be her official graduation. I get a very ill feeling from knowing I won't be there. I was the biggest support in her school life. She'll admit this. I still want to be there for this event, even if we don't ever get back together or even become friends again. This is extremely tough. I know I keep holding onto the fact that we dated almost 10 years as the reason it so tough to move on. I know people say it'll take time, but I honestly want to wake up tomorrow and not care anymore. I would love for anything for her to come back to me. Many people somehow think she will when she figures out what she needs to figure out. But I have come to terms that she isn't going to be back. Even if she wanted to, she'd never admit it and I'm at the point where I will stick to NC/NIC. So.....stalemate. I'm having a terrible day. This week is going to be one of the toughest yet. Link to comment
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