i hate myself my life everything and everyone realted to me :(

[fakingit]

hey everyone ...i just wanted to hear from someone ..i never had a true friend and i don't think so that anyone understands me i desperately need someone to listen to me solve my problems or at least comfort me ...i feel like a useless mass of flesh thrown on this earth everything i do no one appreciates it ..it feels like everyone is their to find faults in me .....iv'e tried to kill myself a several times ...eating pills..i ate about 50 pills in one go ...but nothing happened ...i even drank toilet cleaner ...twice but still my mouth started making bubbles it tasted as hell but nothing happened .........i even tried suffocating myself to death but couldn't gather enough courage.......all i keep praying is that i die...because i know what a big loser i am ...nothing is going for me..it feels like i'm trying to fit in as much as i want to but definitely i can't ....i'm a fail ...i feel sad for my parents on what crappy daughter they've got ...i am a 15 year old girl...and i'm so full of taking those everyday ...everyday i wake up i pray at my holy place that at least today'z day can go well..but i think it'z useless to do so ...coz i know it'z never gonna be so..i know everyday i'm gonna cry to sleep and wake up with puffy eyes that adds up to my ugliness i forgot to mention ...i am the most ugly , fat , useless girl on this planet ....i hate myself ...no one has been good to me....iv'e been good to none and that's how it goes..and is going on from past many years....someone please kill me.....

[ApocalypseDreams]

Fakingit,

 

I'm sorry to hear you are feeling this way. Being a teenager is extremely difficult as you are well aware. The good thing is things definitely do change over the next few years, when you go off to college and become an adult etc. Believe me, they do. I had a pretty horrible experience growing up and being a teenager too. This rough time is only temporary though. Things get better and you start to find your place in the world. Other people grow up too and start treating people better.

 

Don't kill yourself please. You are only 15 and still very young, with your whole life ahead of you. This period will pass.

 

What do you want to do when you finish school?

 

Keep your head up.

[oO pd Oo]

It took a lot of courage for you to make that post. I admire you for that.

People on this forum can (and will) help you out as best as they can. Many of us have been through some very very dark times in our lives as you have and we understand some of what you are going through. As a starting point, I want you understand that there is an entire community here that believes that you have worth and that you have beauty.

 

Believe in that.

 

*hug*

[WindowTo]

Hi fakingit,

Why do you feel this way? Have you had horrible things happen to you in your past? If so, I am sure that these things have traumatized you and are the source of your unhappiness. There is always hope that things will improve, even your feelings towards your own life. Do you have any adults that you trust or that are kind to you whom you can talk to about your issues and help you seek professional help? Psychiatrists are there to listen and help you work out your problems and can be especially effective if you have had nobody to talk to in your life.