t89 Posted October 17, 2011 Share Posted October 17, 2011 My past never bothered me much until now. I am in a relationship and I am so in love with my boyfriend and I regret never giving him a chance when we first met 8 years ago. While i was a teen i hung out with the wrong people. I did stupid things... make out with people who i would never even think of kissing now! I lost my virginity to someone who i wasn't even in love with and only did because i wanted to have sex and actually thought he really did like me. i had sex outside, like REALLY? what the **** was i thinking, we could have easily gotten caught!!!! I was insecure, i never really had many people liking me at my old school until i moved, and when i did the people from this small city i guess will try and get what they want, and me being the gullible girl went along with it. looking back i regret everything. Every time i think of what i have done i get sick to my stomach. I wish i would have had a normal relationship and would have waited and lost it to the person who loved me. when i see people who are still with the person they lost it to, i get so jealous all day every day i think about my past regrets and i hate myself. i was so stupid and i can't get over it and i don't know what to do! I even hate the number of people i have had sex with which is 6 and i am only 22 eyars old. I really want to get rid of these thoughts and just be happy with my boyfriend, but i feel like a total screw up and that i don't deserve to be happy. I'm so stupid Link to comment
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