I just don't know what is wrong with me? I feel soooo lost in life!!!

[Lana85]

Hi everyone. So basically I just graduated from college with a Sociology degree in May. In college I never knew what I wanted to do career wise and always felt indecisive about everything. I enjoyed sociology but at the same time I had no plan of what I was gonna do with it afterwards. I have been looking for jobs for the past few months but I just can't get my head into it. I have no motivation and I am just not excited for my future. So about two weeks ago my friend got me a job at her company. My position there was a communication specialist but they never really gave me any training. I just felt sooo lost every single day and didn't know what the heck I was supposed to do. So the boss kept telling me that I didn't seem to want to be there and I should be more initiative. Yes this wasn't my ideal job but I wanted to do good but I just wasn't. I was struggling to do even simple tasks and it would take me forever to do. Like for example I had to create a company directory on excel and I have never really done it. I know its not hard but I would begin to start it and then delete it. I kept doing it over like 8 times to get it perfect but it still looked horrible. At that point I was getting frustrated and didn't even want to do it anymore. I would create to do lists but just could not get through everything and I would stare at the computer screen instead. I also had anxiety at work and didn't want talk anyone or my boss. I am a social person to an extent. I can talk to people and be friendly and not shy. However at this job I just couldn't bring myself to speak up or be initiative because I would be so timid and scared. My self confidence was soo low at the job. I don't know what is wrong with me. I have never been motivated or had a passion in my life. If something is hard I get so frustrated that I just quit and give up. I also notice that for some reason I am horrible at office jobs. I never seem to do the tasks right, my desk is always a messed, and I am disorganized. I had a internship last summer and I quit because there was this one task that I had to do. I couldn't do it right and would get so frustrated that I would burst into tears. This recent job I quit on Monday because I was just so unhappy and physically couldn't do it. I had been down for the past couple of months out of college. I would drink wine every night, sleep late, my room would be a mess, didn't really want to hang out with friends. Also i am 26 and still live with my Mom. I have this feeling of not being comfortable in my skin. I felt this way for most of my life. However I have a lot of good days where I feel happy and confident and next days I yell at my Mom for silly reasons and just feel blah. I feel like sad and unmotivated. I really want to be motivated and start my own life already. Also my friend told me that my boss said that I am lost in life and need guidance. He has multiple degrees in psychology and said he was willing to give me free therapy sessions once a week. I'm considering it because I have never talked to a therapist. Please can someone give advice on where to start, so I can get back to reality. Thanks

[samantha20]

I know how you feel. I have a degree in English and now I feel lost. I can't seem to get a job that's much better than minimum wage and at the moment I'm in 'face to face marketing', which is basically door to door sales. Have you thought about social work? Sociology is pretty close, you could get your Masters in Social Work with that and become a registered social worker. It's not just working in an office, it's helping abused kids and stuff. I wanted to do it but can't get onto the Masters with English

[Jetta]

Well it could be any number of things or nothing. Your best bet is to get evaluated by a psychologist. You may have an underlying depression but you may not. You could be an alcoholic, struggling with hangovers or not. A simple evaluation is what you need to figure out why you're lacking motivation and drinking.