Lana85 Posted October 12, 2011 Share Posted October 12, 2011 Hi everyone. So basically I just graduated from college with a Sociology degree in May. In college I never knew what I wanted to do career wise and always felt indecisive about everything. I enjoyed sociology but at the same time I had no plan of what I was gonna do with it afterwards. I have been looking for jobs for the past few months but I just can't get my head into it. I have no motivation and I am just not excited for my future. So about two weeks ago my friend got me a job at her company. My position there was a communication specialist but they never really gave me any training. I just felt sooo lost every single day and didn't know what the heck I was supposed to do. So the boss kept telling me that I didn't seem to want to be there and I should be more initiative. Yes this wasn't my ideal job but I wanted to do good but I just wasn't. I was struggling to do even simple tasks and it would take me forever to do. Like for example I had to create a company directory on excel and I have never really done it. I know its not hard but I would begin to start it and then delete it. I kept doing it over like 8 times to get it perfect but it still looked horrible. At that point I was getting frustrated and didn't even want to do it anymore. I would create to do lists but just could not get through everything and I would stare at the computer screen instead. I also had anxiety at work and didn't want talk anyone or my boss. I am a social person to an extent. I can talk to people and be friendly and not shy. However at this job I just couldn't bring myself to speak up or be initiative because I would be so timid and scared. My self confidence was soo low at the job. I don't know what is wrong with me. I have never been motivated or had a passion in my life. If something is hard I get so frustrated that I just quit and give up. I also notice that for some reason I am horrible at office jobs. I never seem to do the tasks right, my desk is always a messed, and I am disorganized. I had a internship last summer and I quit because there was this one task that I had to do. I couldn't do it right and would get so frustrated that I would burst into tears. This recent job I quit on Monday because I was just so unhappy and physically couldn't do it. I had been down for the past couple of months out of college. I would drink wine every night, sleep late, my room would be a mess, didn't really want to hang out with friends. Also i am 26 and still live with my Mom. I have this feeling of not being comfortable in my skin. I felt this way for most of my life. However I have a lot of good days where I feel happy and confident and next days I yell at my Mom for silly reasons and just feel blah. I feel like sad and unmotivated. I really want to be motivated and start my own life already. Also my friend told me that my boss said that I am lost in life and need guidance. He has multiple degrees in psychology and said he was willing to give me free therapy sessions once a week. I'm considering it because I have never talked to a therapist. Please can someone give advice on where to start, so I can get back to reality. Thanks Link to comment
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