I Broke NC

[Little lady]

It has been six days since the breakup and she moved all of her stuff out. She doesn't have my new number...so I texted her. Not begging her back. I said, "Hey, it's Rebecca, there are a few things of yours still here if you want them. I guess when you're ready I can give them to you."

 

crap...

[LDRohnos]

Put them in a box and mail them to her if possible.

[SorrowandPain]

Or get a friend to drop it off. Prolonging the contact will only delay your healing.

[Little lady]

I should....we talked on the phone for like a half an hour....she said she still cares about me and was sorry how things got started...

[Little lady]

I'm assuming by our conversation she still has interest in me...but I'm not going to revolve my life around it. If she wants me back she will ask, but my life is going on with or without her.

[sunnyv]

Its hard. I've been there many times. You have to gave her come back you if it is ever gonna work. Just keep your head up. Things will eventually get better.

[Little lady]

Yeah...it was kind of my fault of why she broke up with me...she is less "mad" at me and is willing to talk. I think I have apologized...but I need to apologize again. I will in a few days, send her a letter.

[ToF]

Why do you need to apologize again?

[Little lady]

because I did something she asked me not to.

[ToF]

Well, if you're apologizing twice for the same thing.. I'd say don't do it. There's no reason to beat a dead horse. But if this is something that you truly thing will make you feel better, then go for it. Just keep in mind that breaking "no contact" doesn't feel good, so only so it if it's literally unavoidable.

[Little lady]

I did apologize again and it did make me feel better. I talked to her last night...same story I don't know why I keep talking to her there's no point. I'm going to let her know what life is like without me. Strict NC from today on out.

 

I am strong

I've been going to the gym to get emotionally and physically stronger

it helps that my family goes to the gym with me.

 

My life is good and it's too bad she doesn't want to be a part of it!

[In The Cold]

I'm assuming by our conversation she still has interest in me...but I'm not going to revolve my life around it. If she wants me back she will ask, but my life is going on with or without her.

 

Its funny right? When you know exactly what you have to do, and what your gameplan should be....and you've read all the posts, and you've thought about it over and over and over and still come to the same conclusions....yet your heart creeps back in every once in a while and tries to convince you otherwise?

 

remember - you can't use your heart if its broken, stick with your head for now

 

its like that Simpson's episode where Lisa is having an inner dialogue with her brain, and her brain says "Well, well, well...look who comes crawling back"

[Little lady]

Thanks.

 

I needed to hear that. I cannot possibly use my heart...it's not so much broken as it is bruised. But really it was both of our faults the relationship went rotten. We were both 3 months out of a long term relationship. She wasn't ready to date..I thought I was. She messed it up in the beginning while we were dating making mistakes. Her family didn't accept her. She would leave several times a year without inviting me to go with them. I would get upset.

 

I'm only human!