ar1993 Posted October 9, 2011 Share Posted October 9, 2011 Hello everybody! I'm new here and this seems a great forum in which to share my situation. I am nearly 18 years old, gay, and i'm attending the fouth grade of high school. So here i am one day coming back home from school. As always i get out of the exit quite quickly avoiding shyly the crowd, and on my way to the subway i notice the profile of an utterly slim, good looking boy walking in front of me. In that moment i saw nothing else: slender silhouette, silky dark hair, graceful pace...hot. The same thing happens again and again, until during the institute's sports day, during which i could not stop staring at him whenever i had the chance to. Nothing like that had ever happened to me, having feelings for a stranger. And inordinately intense ones indeed. Life suddenly unwrapped, lit up: he became the only true interest, centre of thoughts and desire. Everything else could not be more insignificant. I was stuck. After a month or so school finished, and i spent my summer thinking about this stunningly handsome boy, and began to discover anything i could about him. So here are just a few clues to consider: - two years younger than me - more than 1000 friends on facebook - he's a young model - he's into fashion - likes glee - has twitter, with about 100 followers - made compliments on other male model's photos - very social, but has mainly girls as friends - keeps a blog about fashion - a girl who knows him said he's probably gay - flamboyant manners and voice tone So apparently all these aspects seem to lead to the possibility that he's gay. In fact, this may well be the less problematic aspect of the whole issue. After the summer break i was really looking forward to seeing him. So the first day i finish school and head straight towards the exit, and there he was standing, new haircut, even taller than before, even cuter. I stare at him for a while but he doesn't even glance at me. Boiling with passion, breathless for the encounter i return home. The same situation has been repeating itself until now, and i'm afraid it will be until i do something. I have reflected for a long time weather he might like me or not, but honestly no significant clue has come accross for now. He accepted me as a friend on facebook, but doesn't follow me back on twitter. I'm not even sure if he know's who i am. His eye contact is almost too insufficient to be natural, he might be embarassed by my presence (if he realized i like him, of course). Now, a few things about me, or maybe just one that sums up all: shy, shy, shy. Few friends, no relations, lots of thinking. I am terrified even by the thought of approaching him, that's what i mean by being stuck. Moreover, we have no friend, no interest, no nothing in common with him. But i melt every time i see him, he is so so so GORGEOUS. Recently i came up with the simple (but not cheesy) idea of placing a small, almost accidental comment on his twitter profile about his blog. Something like "cool blog" or "i like your fashion blog" (which would be in italian, because if you still didn't realize, i am italian). In this way i would get a first reaction, an output from him to me instead of the other way round. Depending on the answer, or on the absence of answer, i will be able to understand more about this mess. Ideas? Thoughts? Criticisms? Anything would help guys. Thank you so much for the attention in reading this boring long thread, really, and thank you in advance for any replies. Link to comment
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