makayla Posted October 6, 2011 Share Posted October 6, 2011 Hey everyone. I don't know if this is the right place to post this but I guess it's semi-related. I am in Mexico on exchange and have been planning for it for one year, expecting everything to be really fun.. I guess I have expected too much. I just feel a bit discontented because: 1) I was in love with my best friend (who's also on exchange with me)who doesn't feel the same, and that was a major blow because we made out and I got so attached. But I walked away to get my head straight and to get over him. I really miss his friendship but the distance really did me good. Now we're sort of becoming closer again though I'm not sure if it's a good idea. 2) I guess lots of people have been telling me that there will be lots of guys hitting on me in Mexico, whether that idea come from the fact that I'm Asian, I don't know. But it just haven't been like what I expected, I have been here for 2 and half months and yes, I hooked up with one guy, and two or three guys have asked me out but it's nothing like I expected. The encounters were utterly random and I don't really have other male friends at uni. 3) I expected to have lots of friends but I've only got like two, three friends and even they are not getting along with each other so I don't really have a group anymore. 4) Just haven't been making enough mexican friends and my Spanish hasn't really improved. I know that the common suggestion would be to go out more, the relax and meet more friends.. but my question is, how can I not be so affected with my expectations? I expected everything to be crazy, travelling, parties etc etc.. but turns out that I'm usually alone doing my own stuff and on weekends sometimes I go and have a good time but I guess it was nothing like I expected. And small things get me down like especially with guys. A couple of weeks ago I was thinking 'whatever! I don't wnat a boyfriend and I like to be single and flirt to whoever', but right now I feel like there's no one to flirt with even when I go out.. And I suddenly want a boyfriend and start having a relationship For this I feel discontented.. and I can't believe it because I'm finally in Mexico. Link to comment
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