Gimpyrks Posted October 5, 2011 Share Posted October 5, 2011 We "broke up" in late August. I didn't cry. I haven't cried until today. All because of a dream. Feel like I have just gone backwards. I thought I had skipped this stage. I'm over 2000 miles away now...I shouldn't miss him. I don't miss him as a boyfriend..I miss my best friend. I always imagined me coming to school and us still talking like we use to. He was always there for me and always helped me laugh. I never needed him to make me happy. I was happy when he wasn't with me. But now I feel like no one can measure up to him. This.Sucks. Link to comment
symbiot Posted October 5, 2011 Share Posted October 5, 2011 Don't deny your feelings. You need to grieve. Pushing you hurt down inside is not healthy. Defending ones self doesn't not make one strong. Link to comment
Gimpyrks Posted October 5, 2011 Author Share Posted October 5, 2011 I have been so mad at him up until now that I couldn't miss him, but my dream last night just..ugh I hate it. I e mailed him just asking if we could be friends he hasn't replied I really don't expect him too. Link to comment
symbiot Posted October 5, 2011 Share Posted October 5, 2011 Now you are probably going to have anxiety because you reached out to him. My ex comes to see me all the time in my sleep. She doesn't play fair. I wonder if I'm there'd in her dreams. I should be. She will never find another man like me. Link to comment
Gimpyrks Posted October 5, 2011 Author Share Posted October 5, 2011 I have no anxiety actually..I felt better after I sent it because now I know I've done all I can do. I think that too symbiot...I don't know I feel like he won't find another girl like me...but thats sounds like I'm so full of myself but I know what he likes and like..I love doing all those things too and I'm so laid back and care free. Link to comment
beacon Posted October 5, 2011 Share Posted October 5, 2011 I like your signature, gimpyrks. My ex is with me everywhere. I wish she was only in my dreams. I can relate to the best friend situation, though, as I had begun to confide in her only about everything. Then I had to go NC to move forward and I lost that. We smiled a lot though, so I can't regret it, yeah? Link to comment
symbiot Posted October 5, 2011 Share Posted October 5, 2011 Don't sell yourself short. If you know in your heart that he'll never find another girl like you then you are probably right. It's good that you don't feel anxious but every time I did it hit me hardcore later. Good luck! Link to comment
symbiot Posted October 5, 2011 Share Posted October 5, 2011 I like your signature, gimpyrks. My ex is with me everywhere. I wish she was only in my dreams. I can relate to the best friend situation, though, as I had begun to confide in her only about everything. Then I had to go NC to move forward and I lost that. We smiled a lot though, so I can't regret it, yeah? And mine is with me everywhere.she was also my best friend. I lost my bf, my lover and my future. All I hope for now is that she will one day realize what she threw away. I was special! Link to comment
Gimpyrks Posted October 5, 2011 Author Share Posted October 5, 2011 Thank you. It's hard because when I say he was everything I wanted in a guy, I mean it. I just can't see any other guy matching up to him. Not that it couldn't happen I just don't see it happening right now. And its hard because I look at guys I go to school with (I'm in college) and I don't see that either.. Link to comment
symbiot Posted October 5, 2011 Share Posted October 5, 2011 One day because of this you will probably be a beautiful,sexy,smart and wise woman and the man that gets you will be lucky. Choose your mate carefully. Give yourself some time between relationships. It will do you good. Link to comment
Gimpyrks Posted October 5, 2011 Author Share Posted October 5, 2011 I always do. I am very independent..or at least I thought so. I hate feeling like this man is making me so gloomy when I should be so happy. Link to comment
symbiot Posted October 6, 2011 Share Posted October 6, 2011 My darling, nothing in life lasts forever. The people you love will leave, your family members will die, your new car will get old. At some point it won't be someone leaving you it will be you leaving them. For you to will not stay on this planet forever. The secret is to learn as much as you can while you're here and try to enjoy the journey and help others along the way. We are here but for the blink of the cosmic eye. You will be just fine. Link to comment
Gimpyrks Posted October 6, 2011 Author Share Posted October 6, 2011 So true, so true. I know life goes on I have gone through some very tough break ups, this has been one of the easier ones actually. Link to comment
symbiot Posted October 6, 2011 Share Posted October 6, 2011 I have only had a few relationships but the one that brought me here has really torn me down. It has been the worst expexperience of my life( and my life has been really hard ). I hope I can help a few and maybe myself along the way. Link to comment
beacon Posted October 6, 2011 Share Posted October 6, 2011 I have only had a few relationships but the one that brought me here has really torn me down. It has been the worst expexperience of my life( and my life has been really hard ). I hope I can help a few and maybe myself along the way. I'd say you're well on your way. Link to comment
beacon Posted October 6, 2011 Share Posted October 6, 2011 So true, so true. I know life goes on I have gone through some very tough break ups, this has been one of the easier ones actually. Link to comment
symbiot Posted October 6, 2011 Share Posted October 6, 2011 Thanks bro.we are all here for a reason. Some of us here will make friends for life. Some of us will come and go and some of us will stay here for a long long time. If I can help just one because of my experience then I am grateful. Link to comment
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