octour Posted October 5, 2011 Share Posted October 5, 2011 My ex broke up with me after 3.5 years. She met someone while we were still together two before she broke up with me. 2 months later, they went to the justice of the peace and got married. She lied to me about seeing anybody and said that anybody she was hanging out with were just friends and that all this time she has been drinking etc to deal with our breakup. I found this out to be all lies, all except for the drinking. Needless to say, I was devastated and finding out that she got married last week hasn't made anything any easier. Everyone says they are destined for doom and there is no way in hell that this is going to last. But that doesn't help me sleep either. I recently saw a doctor and she prescribed me 0.25mg of xanax to be taken 1-2 times per day. It has helped tremendously despite me having just balled my brains out about 10 minutes ago because I came accross all the emails she would send me. All the stuff I miss were in there. I have since deleted all of them. But my questions is, will being on the xanax actually help me heal or will it just prolong the agony of losing my best friend who I wanted to spend the rest of my life with? Is it just masking the problem or helping me deal with it? I would rather heal the fastest way possible and feel its the healthiest way as well. I want to be stronger after this, not keeping these feelings bottled up inside me only to resurface some other time in the future. Link to comment
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