sv722 Posted October 5, 2011 Share Posted October 5, 2011 .... and why i hate women. I'm 20 years old and its all because of my sister. She always rebukes and verbally abuses me. I've had enough and i disowned her a few weeks ago and im no longer talking to her. Whenever i go to talk to her she is always in a bad mood and answers with abusive retorts. She hates me for no reason. She's always been like this ever since we were kids. Therefore whenever i see girls my own age and would like to talk to them, i just see my sister being rude and abusive to me and hurling insults and i assume that this is what will happen to me if i try to go and talk to those girls. I am absolutely cripplingly terrified. Girls look at me all the time on campus and when i walk past them they look down or look away. I can talk to guys alright once they come over and im very comfortable and can be myself but i avoid girls like hell. I'd like to get into a relationship but i somehow dont feel as if i'll ever be good enough or worthy of one. In lectures i just sit all by myself and avoid people especially girls. I only talk with a few people that i know. I'm on medication for anxiety and depression. The depression is almost gone, its just the anxiety that's a massive pain right now. I've had tons of opportunities to hook up with girls and lose my virginity with them but i just cant because i'm scared of them. What should i do? I'm going out tonight and there will be lots of girls at our school disco and they'll try and get with me and i'll feel really awful and pressured. Link to comment
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