DaniArizona Posted October 5, 2011 Share Posted October 5, 2011 I met my boyfriend a year ago...almost to the day...I live in a very very small tourist town and I actually had moved there after a bad break up....there's nothing to do in this town except go down a self destructive path, which is exactly what I was doing.... "C" was here on vacation visiting his dad when we met at the bar....he was 10 years older than me and told me he was legally separated....I believed him and didn't really care because, although he was one of the most attractive men I've ever met, I knew he was a tourist and he'd be gone soon. We had a two week fling in which we fell in love and he went back to Oregon where he was from but we talked everyday....two weeks later he came back to Arizona to live with me and that's when I found out that he wasn't legally separated... he had just left his wife and kids for me...making me the other woman...I don't have kids, I've never been married and although I am responsible, I am very immature, esp. when it came to this situation....I had never been in such a situation and I did feel extreme guilt for being the other woman...but I was in love. Last December my mom who was also my best friend died...my self destructive path got even worse...I went to work when I was supposed to but when I wasn't working I was drowning myself in vodka..."C" expressed how much he dislike this so I worked on quitting...I never quit drinking, but I did cut down considerably and expected him to do the same, but than his father died soon after and his drinking got worse. Over my emotional grief that I was still feeling and my anger towards his continuous drunken state, I wasn't exactly the support system he needed...and I also didn't realize that at that same time he was missing his kids so much. He kept making me plan on moving to Oregon with him...I would make back up plans and he'd get angry and tell me that, no, we were going to Oregon together.... well, two weeks ago we got into a drunken fight, he called his grandfather to send him money (yes, a 35 year old who needs to borrow money) and he promised his family he'd come back home within the month....than last thursday night he decided to leave....he told me he wanted to spend one last night with me that night but around 8 pm he called me a * * * * * and told me to leave....when I asked him why he was talking to me like that he said because it was easier that way, so I left....later that night I talked to him and he was mad that I did leave...telling me I picked the wrong time to listen to him. He called me the next morning to tell me he was in Idaho and that he still wants to be in a relationship but he wants to take it slow....after a YEAR of living together, he wants to take it slow?! Than he didn't call me for days...My heart felt like it was being torn out of my chest.. yesterday, .after a thousand unanswered calls and texts I finally left a text saying, "if you don't want me anymore, be a man and tell me instead of putting me through this torture" in which he replied, "I'm with the kids, can't talk....we're done...don't call anymore"....This was my first time actually being in love...after my mom died, he became my whole life...and he knew it...and allowed it to happen...than today I found out that my supposed friend had emailed him the night he left saying she's in love with him...I know that's not why he broke up with me...He hasn't been online since he left so he wouldn't have read it, but not only am I suffering from such a horrible heart break, but I find out I can't even trust my friends?! I haven't eaten since he's left, I barely sleep more than a few hours a night, I'm a bartender and I keep crying at work...no one wants to drink when the bartender is crying! What should I do? I know he left me for a good reason...to go back to his kids, but I feel like I will actually DIE of this heartbreak. Link to comment
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